Turn Away | c.h

Chapter 51 - So Sentimental*

hey guys, I'm so sorry for the late update! I was away and had no connection whatsoever! so sorry, here's a smut chapter to make up for it xx

"So I just..." I mumbled, slowly straddling his waist. Calum breathily laughed, softly grabbing my hips and comfortingly squeezing. We sat on the centre of my bed, my shaky hands holding onto him as I tried to talk myself up. It was intimidating, to say the least. Mostly because I had no clue how to even do this, it seemed harder than I thought.

"You got this, Stel." Calum lowly said, giving me a small smile.

I couldn't help but laugh, softly shaking my head.

"Sorry," I shyly said, his thumbs grazing the skin on my back. He enveloped me in a small hug, our chests pressed together as I waited a little while longer. He shrugged, leaning in even more to press kisses against the skin of my shoulder.

"Take your time."

"Okay..." I whispered, adjusting myself over him. His grip on me loosened as I slightly pulled away. Calum looked up at me, eyes shining as I grabbed his hard on, gently holding it in position.

"Do you need me to help?" He asked. I softly shook my head, pressing a kiss on his cheek as a thank you. He shifted his hips as I slowly sunk down on him, momentarily closing my eyes.

I paused, his head falling down on my shoulder. I ran my hand through his non-existent hair, breathing out a long breath as I slowly moved myself up from his hips.

"God, I really... I don't know what I'm doing here." I embarrassedly whispered, moving my hips back to his. I saw his jaw muscles continuously flicker, my hands gently wrapped around his neck. He caressed my waist, fingers gently tracing patterns to comfort and distract me. For the most part, it did.

I gained my own little rhythm, moving my hips above him. It didn't even feel pleasurable, it actually kind of hurt my thighs. God, how do people do this?

"Shit," he quietly mumbled, hanging his head back.

I placed my hands on his warm chest, gently moving myself upwards. I then pushed his back down to the mattress, letting out a small squeak as I almost fell flat on top of him. Embarrassment flooded me, as his hands moved to my lower back.

I heard him chuckle as my movements ceased completely, my hands pressed flat to his chest and my hair fallen on to my face.

"Sorry..."

He placed his hands on mine, gently shaking his head. I didn't even want to look up at him, it was embarrassing how inexperienced I was in comparison to him.

"It's fine, Stella. Don't stress about this, just move whatever way feels right for you. Don't worry about me."

"I'm trying," I breathily laughed, my cheeks flushing as I looked back up at him.

"I know you are." He grinned, causing a trillion butterflies to set flight in my stomach, my heart filled with love. I couldn't comprehend how much I truly loved this boy sometimes.

I slowly began moving again, the position making it easier to move my hips more pleasurably. I think I finally got into the rhythm of things.

Calum let out a low hum under me, his eyes closing as he gently gripped my waist. My breaths became short, my hips moving instinctually as I tried to gather the rhythm that I was creating between us. The friction was slowly creating more and more pleasure between us both, my hands gripping the sheets beside Calum's head.