Kaya and Niall hate each other. He's her annoying next door neighbor who's made her life miserable ever since she was born. Kaya thinks Niall does it out of enjoyment. Or is it something else?
"Sometimes it's love, sometimes it's...
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It's difficult to act normal the next time I see Niall. With the thoughts that rendered my mind the night before, I seem to act a lot different when he's present. Or my mind just decides to completely blank out, remembering, I may have feelings for this guy.
Of course, he's still not talking to me. He'll look at me once in a while in computers, searching for any emotion on my face. He probably feels bad about what he said yesterday.
I'll never know, because he keeps avoiding me. I don't want to talk to him anyway. I'm still mad.
I should be happy. Harry and I are basically together. He treats me like a girlfriend, it just isn't official yet. We haven't kissed or hugged or held hands or anything, though. It's like the step before the actual real thing. But I'm not happy.
He was my goal from the beginning and I technically have him now. Now that I'm here, I don't know anymore. I thought I'd be happy with him. He makes me feel some kind of way, but it just isn't the same as before, when I would only crush on him from across the class or down the hallway. When we didn't talk. When I didn't know much about him. Maybe I've always only liked the thought of him.
"Kaya?" Harry snaps his fingers in front of my face. A fry is dangling between my lips, I'd been staring off behind him in the cafeteria.
"Are you okay? That fry isn't going to chew itself..." He chuckles.
I nervously laugh. I'd been too occupied and started to drift off, forgetting to eat.
"I'm fine." I say, pushing the fry in my mouth as I chew and swallow it down.
Cady's sitting beside me with Liam beside Harry, and they all go back to converse.
I stare at Harry as he bites into his hamburger. He gives a closed smile when Liam tells a story and they all start to laugh together. I'm out of it so I don't laugh. I just pretend to be listening, when really, I'm watching Harry.
I'm thinking him through.
It's two nights until homecoming and we're going together. It still seems so unreal. I really like him, I do. But Niall sticks in the back of my mind and I can't stop thinking about him either.
Cady does the least of helping that. She'd heard something about him earlier this morning and she just had to mention it to me.
"Did you know that Niall's going to homecoming? I mean, you should know, since you guys are like best friends, being neighbors and all. I heard him talking about it this morning. I wonder who he's going with." She'd said when we were walking together to class.
It totally took me down, right then and there.
"Really? That's cool. I didn't know he was. Good for him." I replied back, the tone in my voice revealing that I didn't mean what I said. I was glad when Cady didn't catch it. I had lied.
