Girl Next Door

Letters of Love

"Brynn, I have a letter for you," A nurse said as she walked into Brynn's room. She had an manilla envelope in her hand that had Brynn's name written on it. It had been months since Brynn had received a letter. The last one she had received was a letter from her kids, three months ago, saying how much they missed her.

"Who's it from?" Brynn asked as she held out her pale arm to reach for the envelope. She's been stuck reading nothing but novels for the past few months and it would be nice to have something real to read. Hopefully it was from her kids or her parents. She wanted to know how they were doing.

"It's from your husband," The nurse said as she placed the envelope in Brynn's fragile hand before checking on her ivs. "I'll check on you in an hour," The nurse said before she left Brynn alone again.

Brynn stared at the envelope in her hands that was addressed to her. The return address was her old home, Adam's house. The place where her kids were being raised without her. They had no mother, just a father. Brynn always wondered what the kids told their friends about her. Maybe that she was sick? Or maybe that she died? It wasn't like she'd ever be able to see them again anyway.

Brynn pushed those thoughts aside and opened the envelope. She pulled out what looked like sheet music. She skimmed over the music and saw Adam's handwriting scribbled on it.

She set the envelope next to her and looked over the music, from the beginning.

Blue jean baby, LA lady, seamstress for the band

On the back of each page of lyrics and music notes, was an explanation of the lyrics. Adam had explained each story, in detail, that were behind all the lyrics. He wanted her to understand everything he was feeling, and he hoped she would get this was his sign that he wasn't giving up on her. He still loved her and she needed to know that.

Brynn read every page, front and back, over and over again. The tears slid down her cheeks as they fell from her eyes. She smiled at all the little notes Adam had written along the sides.

She smiled at all the lyrics he had written. It was just like Adam to do something like this. She may have been gone from the house, but she wasn't gone from his heart. And he wasn't absent from hers. She still loved him, and deep down, she knew he still loved her too.

Brynn reached the end of the music sheets and looked at the envelope next to her. There was a bulge in it. She shook the envelope and out fell a journal. On the front, in cursive letters, it read:

The Love of My Life: My Letters of Love

Brynn turned to the first page and began her reading.

Letter 1

My darling Brynn, where are we at in our lives? Divorced? It's complicated? I'd like to think that we are still married, because I couldn't handle you not being a part of my life. Yes, you're in the hospital, and we are technically divorced, but it doesn't mean that I care about you any less than before.

I have fucked up, a lot. I know I have, and I probably will in the future. But, I'm trying. I have to. I'm trying for Skylar, Bentley, Paisley, and you. Nothing else matters to me.

I wish you were here to see the kids grow up. I know they miss you a lot. Sometimes Paisley will wake up in the middle of the night and ask for you. It breaks my heart when I have to tell her that you aren't here. Her face goes to a frown, and she sheds a tear or two, as do I.

We all miss you, more than you'll ever know. I know you haven't forgiven me yet, but I plan on using this journal to communicate with you, since we have no other way. I'll update you on myself and the kids, and you can tell us about you.

If you're wondering what I told the kids, don't worry, I didn't tell them the real story. I simply told them that mommy was on a vacation, and I didn't know when you'd be back. They asked if you still loved them, and I said of course.

They do care about you, Brynn. And all four of us hope you can return home soon. The kids need you. I need you. We need you in our lives. We need you home. We miss you so much.

Here's the first letter of the story. Write your letter on the next page, and send it back to us when you're finished. We love you. I especially love you. I hope you can forgive me for all the pain I have caused you.

Love, Adam

Brynn wiped away her tears and turned the page of the journal. She picked up a pen that was laying on the table next to her. She began to write out some of the feelings she had kept bottled up since she was placed in this hell hole.

Letter 2

Dear Adam,

Thank you for starting this journal. It gets awful lonely in here sometimes, actually, all the time.

It's hard for me to be without you and the kids. I've thought about the decision I made that put me in here and realized that it was not only a rash, but also emotional action on my part.

I should've never put you or the kids in this situation. You deserve much better than that, and I realize that now. I never should have left you, Adam. It was a stupid mistake. I love you, and I always will.

I know I'm a little too late, but I want our divorce undone. I never told you this, but our divorce wasn't finalized. I made them hold it off until I had completed my choice.

The day I came to see you, I was going to ask for your forgiveness and ask if we could try to make this work again. I realize now, again, that I'm too late. You may be happy with that girl or with a different one, but I just want you to know that I never wanted us to end like this. I wanted us to be together for a long time.

I know now that it can never be like that because I am stuck in here, and only a certain person makes the decision to let me out. They won't tell me who this person is, but I hope they let me out soon. I want to go home to you and the kids. I don't know how much longer I can live without you.

Tell the kids mommy says hello, and I hope to see them very soon. Hopefully, this "vacation" will come to an end within the next week or so.

I'm so fed up with being in this tiny room. I need an escape, forever. I need to go home. If you'll still have me when I get out, I'd very much like to come home to you and the kids. I hope that we can push past all this and leave it all behind. I want a fresh start for us.

The song you wrote was beautiful. It was truly touching and amazing. I couldn't have expected anything less from you, Adam. It brought me to tears, just like all of yours songs do, and to know that song was about me just warms my heart.

I better go. I love you and the kids so much. 

Love always and forever, Brynn 

Brynn set her pen down and shut the journal. She slid it back into the manilla envelope and changed the address to Adam's house. She hoped this would show him how she really felt. Hopefully he could forgive her for what she had done, and they could be together again.

If not, Brynn would be broken for a long time.

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There it is. The chapter before the epilogue. I'm not sure whether this book will have a sequel or not. It will be your guys' decision after you read the epilogue. Book two, if it happens, will be more of a reader based book than my own ideas, if I get good reactions that is. 

I plan to have the epilogue up soon. While your waiting maybe check out some of my other stories :) Please Please comment and vote! I love to hear how you feel about these chapters and what you think should happen next. 

So long for now :)