5 | an unsent love letter to my mama

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dear mama,

i know of your depression (seventeen years later i've inherited the mental burden) of the arthritis from your mother and the blindness from your father. i know of the shards of glass that ruined your nerve endings which is to say, you no longer feel things like you used to. (emotional or otherwise) i know of the solitary confinement spent on an island [britain] oceans away from home [nigeria]

mama, i know you are disappointed in me each time you tell me i am like my father [your husband] i feel a pang down my chest where the doctors sewed me up. time and time again i am proving you wrong/proving him right.

i don't mean to, sometimes the weight of life is too much, the ache in my shoulder too painful, the beat of my heart too weak  — i'm sorry

i love you*

- do you love me too? (no one else does in this house).

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