Mine

Baby

JAMES

"Why would you do this james?"

"Do what? Start a life? Make a family? Be with the girl of my dreams?" I muttered in anger.

Joe looked down at the floor and sighed.

"When this gets out everything will change. We have no idea how fans will react! This could ruin the bands clean cut credibility. Did you not think about that? Brads girlfriend went to the psycho ward and you knocked up a fan you met at a concert.... " he stopped and laughed sharply.
He looked up at me slowly.

"Is this the end of the Vamps?"

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BRAD

I lay there with Liv for hours just holding her tight. The past 6 months have been so hard. Knowing she was going through therapy and getting the help she needed was good and I was grateful for that. But being apart from her was hard.

I looked down at her arm and sighed. There was no going back now.
She might be crazy Brad.. A voice in my head kept repeating.

You need to leave while you still can. She's crazy. Look what she did to herself. What would she do if you ended it with her? You left her in prison for a day and she did this to herself. What about if you leave her forever?

I would never do that. I argued with myself.
I regret leaving her I was so selfish.

She made a mistake but I made a bigger one leaving her to fend for herself in jail.
During her 6 months in therapy I tried to get my life together. I went hiking, wrote new songs and re decorated my flat.
I tried to normalise my life again.

Sometimes I wonder about what life would be like without her and I wish I could turn back the time.
To when things weren't complicated and dramatic.

But seeing her now, the feelings come flooding back.

"Brad?" Liv began to wake and looked at me wearily.

"Yes Liv I'm here."

"I had a thought. I want to fix what I've done." She whispered softly looking down at her arm.

"How." I whispered back.

She stood up and held her arm out for me to grab.

"I'm going to get a tattoo."

"A tattoo?" I said carefully, not sure what she meant.

"When I went to prison I was clearly having some issues and now I'm safe and sane I don't want this reminder of what I used to be." She pointed at her arm.

"I'm going to cover this scar with a tattoo. A tattoo that represents me.. And us.. In a positive way. Not a destructive, harmful way. "

"That's really brave Liv but a tattoo of what?"

"I don't know!" She laughed. " but I was hoping you would help me."

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LIV

I don't remember much of my time in 'therapy'. I just know I was crazy.

When they discharged me they told me it was just a temporary glitch that started in my frontal cortex (a part of my brain) and that it wasn't my fault.

Apparently the trauma of being in prison activated a damaged cell in my brain.. Making me act crazy.

But I don't want excuses for my behaviour. I want to forget it.

A tattoo would help me. Help cover the visible scarring. But also help me emotionally move past the whole situation.

Being with Brad now made me feel safe and I knew it was where I wanted to be.

"Carly's pregnant you know." Brad muttered, waking me from my day dream.

"What? But they've been together like 2 weeks?"
My mind felt dizzy. What was he talking about.

"They've been together like 8 months." Brad laughed.

I've missed a lot.

"It's gonna change everything. Our band. Our friendship. Our lives." Brad sighed.

"We should go visit them!" I jumped up in excitement.

Brad looked at me and tilted his head.
"But she left you?" He said confusion in his voice.
"She's not been to see you in months. She hasn't called in months. She's moved on. I'm the only one who's stayed here." He said slowly.

My heart felt as if it had been run over by a truck. No.. scratch that. Ran over by 400 trucks and then reversed over by 400 more.

I fell on Brad and hugged him tight.

"Why did you stay by me? I went crazy. I went to prison. I went to hospital. I've been unresponsive for half a year. Yet you're still here? Why?" I cried into his shoulder.

"Because I love you."

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OMG guys I've been gone for nearly 3 years. I will be surprised if I have any original readers left. I am prepared for some hate! You will probably have to read over the last few chapters to have any idea about what's going on.
I'm the worst and I'm So sorry guys!!!

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I'll try to update regularly now and I'm sorry to my dedicated readers I've probably lost you all and I'm so sorry!