Uncertain Attachment

A Misunderstanding

At Friday night, August was sitting in  the veranda of his house. He was passionately playing the guitar and singing the love lyrics for his naughty girl.

"'Cause we're living in a world of fools, breaking us down.." his voice soft, he hears Harry giggling at the other line of the phone.

"I didn't know you could sing.." she said softly, her stomach full of butterflies, he chuckled and continued playing.

"When they all should let us be --.."

"We belong to you and me .."  Harry joined him in singing, August stops playing and put down his guitar, he took his phone and pressed it to his ear and leaned on the couch.

"How deep is your love." he sings and he hears her giggling again.

"As deep as Bermuda Triangle." her tone happy and funny.

"Really? Do you even know how deep is that?" he was smiling wide, imagining Harry smiling as him.

"Nooooo .."

"Then you don't know how deep your love is."

"I know. How about you? How deep is your love?"

"Same here." they both chuckled.

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After the phone call, August remained sitted in his seat. He watches the dull apartment and a sad memory conquers his thought.

"I'm sorry August.." Rachel said, his ex girlfriend. As far as he can recall, it has been five years since he was in a relationship. Rachel was his girlfriend since his senior years then suddenly, she broke up with him right after their college graduation.

He was so shock and angry that he almost lost his life through alcohol and car speeding and everything he could think of to die. He had no idea why Rachel broke up with him until, two years after the break up, she had a closure with him.

"Seriously Augustus? You wanna die because I broke up with you?" she asked. She played with her hair as August watched her with wonder.

"Augustus! Heeey? Am I even talking to someone?" she said, she held August's face and leaned her forehead on his.

"Augustus! Hey, it's me. Rach? Can you hear me? August?."

He stared at her, not planning to reply or whatever. He just want to be with her, he wants her back, but what can he do anyway? None. So he stared at her until he was satisfied.

"August? Are you still with me?" she asked, disappointed. She let down her hands and frowns at him, she could see the love and tenderness and fondness in his eyes.

"I still love you Rach.. Please come back.. It hurts.. It hurts so much with you gone. Pleaseee, come back." he said.

She snorts and she gave him a snap kiss. Her smile was so sweet, August can't see any damn reason why would she break up with him.

"Sorry August, but it's better to give your love to someone else. I don't deserve it."

"Why don't you deserve it? I deserve your love --"

"Shhh, Augustus. I'm not going back, okay? I'm just really sorry."

"Why Rachel? Why?" he asked, he just wanted to know where he went wrong and he took her hands and hold them tight.

"Augustus, this is enough." she looked down at their hands and pulled hers away. "You just really need to --"

"No. You can't do this to me. After everything we've been through you'll just leave me just like that? Like what, I was just a trophy to your collection? Where did all our promises go?! Your promises!"