Heartless Love

Chapter 27

Parted ways

Tahimik kami sa buong unit ko na para bang isang malaking kasalanan ang gumawa ng ingay.I went back to my room after i washed the dishes he used when he was cooking.I guess this is our first misunderstanding,our first quarrel? Ano bang mali sa sinabi ko?

There's a part of me that i want to approach him and explain more of my point but seeing him ignoring me made me back off.Pahuhupain ko muna ang galit nya.Kung nagalit man talaga sya sa sinabi ko.Huminga ako ng malalim.I think he don't have plan to talk to me either as he's busy answering every call he receive,reading some papers he got from his office yesterday,or else facing his laptop to answer all his emails?

I don't know how our day ended like that but yes...we ended our day without talking.Not even a stare from when i go to the kitchen to get some juice,nothing.Seryoso ang mukha nito na nagtitipa sa laptop nito na para bang kalaban nito ang mga letra na nakasalubong nito dahil salubong ang kilay nito.

My eyes immediately fly to my door when he entered my room.I'm hopeful that he'll talk to me finally but it died when i saw him open my closet and take out his duffel bag.My heart hurts seeing him packing back all his things inside his bag without saying anything.Hindi ba talaga sya magsasalita? Is he like this then everytime we'll have a fight? I blink back my tears many times to  stop it from falling cause i don't want to do that now.Kahit papanu may pride pa rin naman ako no!

"I'm going back to my place now."

Tanging tango lang ang naging sagot ko.Ayokong magsalita at baka pumiyok ang boses ko.

This morning suppose to be sweet.I was expecting a passionate kiss from him,a cuddle when we are done from our brunch or maybe making out?

And this is what i hate...feeling like this,feel the pain i'm feeling right now.Akala ko bihasa na ako sa sakit na kung masasaktan man ako ulit,hindi ganun kahapdi but i was wrong.Why? Because i expected too much.My hope went high.Kahit na sinabi ko sa umpisa na isusugal ko kung anong meron ako,ang hirap pa rin pag nasa aktuwal na sitwasyon ka na.This is one of the things that i can't predict.

As usual,i keep looking at my phone - hoping that there will be a message from him pero wala.Umasa na naman ako.Ilang araw akong ganun,ang maghintay sa wala - hindi ko nga alam kung may hinihintay pa ba ako.How many days since he left and i didn't hear anything from him.

Sir Luis called me for a meeting about the next project i'm going to do.I wore the new dress i bought when i went abroad,applied a make up just to show to anyone that i'm perfectly fine.Ayokong nakikita ng iba na pinu-problema ko yung lovelife ko.

We discuss about the fashion magazine's wish for me to do,and they want it to shoot in Bangkok.Wala namang problema sa akin.As long as we both agreed to each other's condition.I maybe open minded but i'm not the type of model na halos wala ng matirang saplot sa katawan ko just for the sake of the magazine or other people satisfaction.

But my eyes lifted to the couple who get up from the table just near our table.I don't know if he see me or just pretending that he didn't cause he acted like one.Ilang beses akong lumunok dahil sa nakita ko.I'm trying to swallow the pain i'm feeling right now.

Nagtagis ang bagang ko ng makitang nilagay ng babae ang braso nito sa braso ni Mikael at ngumiti ng matamis.I want to think that maybe i'm wrong - just like what i think about Rio and Krys na baka pinsan nya lang o isa sa mga kamag anak niya but my instinct think differently.

"Oh? Jowa mo yan diba? Wala na kayo?"
Sir Luis eyes are on them.They're leaving the place.Tiningnan ko ang table na pinanggalingan nila - there were old couple that smiling while looking at them as if it was adorable scene to witness.

Mapait akong ngumiti kay Sir Luis at tumayo na."I will accept the job.Please email me rest of the details about this.Salamat po."

Nakakaunawang tumango ito na umiiling din."I'll email you your flight sched and the rest of the details.Don't worry too much D,it will be okay at the end."

"I'm not worried that much Sir.You know me.I maybe not look okay not but eventually later,i'll be."

"That's why i like you.You are strong and fierce.Kung straight lang ako,you will be my type."

I made a face to him."You're not my type then."

"Ouch..."

Nagpaalam na ako na umalis.I pack my things for my trip just to get distracted of what i've seen today.Seriously? Iniisip ko na baka busy lang sya kaya hindi nya ako tenext or tinawagan.Pero rason ba ang pagiging busy na kahit isang text di mo magawa? He want to quit? Fine.Madali lang naman akong kausap.Kahit nakuha nya na ang kung anong meron ako,i will not stay in the dark and cry.That's not so me.Ang punto ko,pwede nya akong kausapin,at least may pormal kami na break up,hindi yung ganito na nangangapa ako sa dilim na kahit clue ay wala.

Tiningnan ko ang phone ko dahil akala ko tungkol sa skedyul ng pag alis ko.But i received a message from Mikael saying 'it's not what you think'.Ganun? Yun lang? Anong gusto nyang isipin nya sa nakita ko? Wala lang yun?

Hindi ako nagreply.I even deleted his message.Tinanggap ko ang tawag mula kay Sir Luis para sa ibang detalye ng trabaho ko.I'm glad that i'm leaving tomorrow kahit na dalawang araw pa mula ngayon ang photo shoot.

I'm going to explore that country,meet new people,make friends,makes memory.Life has a lot to offer kaya bakit ko pag aksayahan ng oras ang taong walang panahon para sa akin?

On that day,i changed the passcode on my unit.I'm going to change everything,dust off the past and move on.Madali lang sabihin pero mahirap gawin.But if you really want it,you can.Before i board the plane,i blocked his number and deleted his number,deleted his photos on my IG,and on my phone.See? I'm easy to talk to.Hindi ako yung taong namimilit.I won't beg either.I can always find someone else better than him.Who cares about the memories i've made with him? Mapapalitan din yun balang araw.

I took a selfie and posted on my IG with the caption 'forget.move on'.