Feel//Phan

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An// I didn't realize people were actually reading this and kinda forgot about it ahh sorry I'll try to finish t for the few ppl who are reading//

weeks have passed.. I've been to Starbucks more in the past month that I have in my entire life

Phil has learned a very impressive amount of sign language, we are able to hold a proper conversation now.. I still can't help but wonder why he is putting in so much effort

He is actually coming to my flat later today and I feel strange.. I can't quite tell if it's a good or bad feeling

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when phil first arrived we greeted each other as usual but then I saw him gasp and point, I turned to see my piano

he quickly signed 'please play'  and I didn't know how to refuse so I signed 'okay' but then I froze

it suddenly occured to me.. what if I suck? i have never been able to hear the sound of my playing so i might play horrendously.. but I had already agreed and he looked so hopeful, I decided to give it a shot

I sat down and slowly placed my fingertips on the smooth keys. I began playing a very simple song from one of my favorite animes - watashi no uso, from your lie in April.. Of course I can't hear but if I could I'm sure the song would sound beautiful

after I finished I was afraid to turn around but as I hesitantly rotated I saw Phil with his head down.. I thought he was surely disappoined so I shuffled over to him to apologize but as he lifted his head I saw a glimpse of the glistening tears right before he pulled me into a tight embrace

as we slowly pulled away he signed 'beautiful, that was amazing dan' with a bright smile

relief rushed through me, but I still couldn't figure out why he was crying.. then suddenly I felt tears streaming down my face too.. the only difference was I knew why I was crying, I finally had someone

as he pulled me back into a hug I realized it was only the beginning of something great