this might be the last update for now... it depends what happens here.
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day one hundred and fifty seven
dear shoma,
i just blew a kiss upwards.
to the sky. dark and endless.
to the stars. bright and sparkling.
to the moon. haunting and beautiful.
and to you. the one i need.
i'm not in love with you again yet, but i still need you like i've never needed anyone in my life.
i don't know why i'm writing this, to be honest.
i mean, it's not like my entire attitude towards you will have changed just because it's the new year.
i have a photograph of you next to me.
but a photograph doesn't make up for having you here.
i just need you.
so, so much.
shoma.
i need you more than you'll ever be able to comprehend.
there's a bottle of some undetermined alcohol next to me.
...
i just took a swig.
it's strong.
i took another swig.
and another.
and another.
half the bottle gone.
dang, this is strong.
it's already going to my head.
but i like this feeling.
...
i decided to stay sober, just until i've finished this letter.
not another one of those illegible ones today.
so.
happy new year.
i still need you.
shoma,
i need you more than you'll ever be able to comprehend.
i'm sorry.
- yuzuru
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three hundred and sixty five ; yuzusho
Fanfictionin which yuzuru loses the love of his life.