before you read this story please, PLEASE i beg you not to be judgmental. i know what i did was dumb af but please just don't leave any rude comments here, i already feel weird af thank you
okay so parnia mentioned in her rant book that we were on tinder it was lit i talked to so many cool guys and i know i'm gonna sound like a bitch but i flaked on a few but for some reason i didn't feel the need to ditch this particular one like ??? he wasn't hella cute and his personality didn't stand out in any way but i just felt like okay with going out with him
so i went out w him (a few of my close friends know who i'm talking about y'all i see you!!) and tbh i was so fucking dumb but basically we went to this lit japan town place and we had lit japanese food and we had a lit day but somehow we ended up at his house ??? and tbh at first when he parked his car and got out and went inside i thought he was gonna come back in so i just sat in the car but then he came and asked if i was gonna go inside and i felt too shy to say no (dumbass parand istg) and i did and then we went in and we sat in the dark for like 40 minutes and just talked and i fucking knew this bitch had intentions but idk for some reason i didn't do anything
fast forward i fucking lost my virginity to him (yes i didn't tell any of my friends bc i felt stupid as fuck please don't @ me y'all) and tbh i'm not saying that oh idc about my v card at all but i'm not saying that it's the most important and precious thing in my life idk if that makes sense so that's not the important part like honestly by now it's whatever to me
but anyways i met this dude like a month ago and i went out w him like 10 times i think or something like that and within those 10 times i took parnia w us about 3 times i think
and tbh i wish it wasn't so late at night and that i wasn't so lazy to pull up all the receipts to show when the red flags started appearing but basically i had a feeling that this boy had a thing for parnia bc he would casually ask oh are we bringing parnia w us like he was interested in her ???
but yeah basically i went out w him like last week and he kept trying to do stuff and i kept saying no bc i didn't want to but he was so persistent not like forceful but like how a child would be when they want a toy idk if that makes sense but yeah that really frustrated me bc like bitch do you have no respect for me (-:::: my opinion doesn't matter ??? yikes @ boys tbh
but yeah that was the first time that i really got annoyed because of how he was acting and i was just thinking like fuck no i can't deal with this boy bc my family and close friends know that i'm the type of girl to like hang out with or even date a boy for a while and not get attached, my feelings grow vvv slowly and they can disappear in a matter of seconds so i have no problem w that, ANYWAYS i told parnia that i'm starting to see some real huge red flags and that i'd hang out w him AND her one more time and try to figure out his intentions bc i had a feeling that this bitch had his eyes on her
BOY WAS I RIGHT so basically we went out w him yesterday and it was aight but we went to his house and we were playing video games and shit and he kept trying to make out w me and i kept saying no bitch gtfo and after we came back home i was like fuck no i can't deal w his hormones i can't do this shit anymore so i texted him and told him that i wanna stop doing whatever tf we were doing
and guess what the fuck this bitch did (-:::: he texted parnia on insta (OKAY BUT WHO DOES THAT) and he basically said that he likes her ?????????? and he talked shit about me and literally said that my arm looks like a baguette (bc i used to self harm and i have a few scars left) and he has the fucking guts to ask me to hang out I AM JUST SPEECHLESS
tbh at this point idk why tf i'm still nice to his ass i don't have feelings for him but i'm so fucking triggered bc of how much of a douche bag he is
++++ OH AND I FORGOT he followed me on insta and he saw that i had quite a few followers and tbh i don't wanna sound snobby like how can i be a snob these are my friends (-::: anyways HE KEPT FUCKING ASKING ME HOW I GOT FOLLOWERS AND HE LEGIT ASKED ME TO ASK MY 'BUDDIES' TO FOLLOW HIM I WAS LIKE NO RKDKWKXD WTF HOW SHAMELESS AND THIRSTY CAN ONE BE
ok end of rant i'm sorry that i haven't replied to people yet tbh idk why i haven't been feeling like socializing lately but imysm and ilysm please take care of yourselves mUAH
