I did it for you
For you, you don't understand
I added it for you
The one who believes
I have changed for the worse
Because of what they have taught you
I only enter those walls for a party
Or an activity
Because when I do
I feel forced
Forced to say certain things
Forced to see what you see
And I am done with the force
But I did it for you
The one who is worried that my life will go
Down an unforgiving path
Do you not understand
Maybe I want to put more holes in my body
But not to cause myself pain
I want to show my individuality
Maybe I want pictures painted under my skin
But not to fill my emptiness
I want to show you what is meaningful to me
I want others to know things without having to pry at my soul
I want to be a mystery
Have meaningful questions thrown my way
I want to be me
I did it for you
Do you not understand
Just because I want these things
does not mean I will go so far as to
Let a drug decide my future
Let the taste pull me from my own decisions
It does not mean I will do exactly the thing that
Tore my family apart
Do you not understand
I did it to show you
Not all those who wander
Are lost
Now maybe you get those lines
As they seep into you brain
Or maybe I can never show you
Just know
There is no way
I am going back to a world of hate and judgement
No way I am going back to a world of force
