NEIGHBORS • Why Don't We

Chapter: 5

Chapter song: Plot twist by sigrid

Monday

Its around 11:25 a.m. when I pull up to a building and park. I lay my head back on the headrest and close my eyes, sighing. I grab my phone and get out, walking into the building. I walk up to the receptionist and and check in then sit down.

I unlock my phone and scroll through my incognito Tumblr until I hear my name called. I get up and follow the woman back to a small room and sit down in a chair across from her.

"Hello aria, I'm dr. June. Call me Sadie. " says a gorgeous woman with blonde hair and bright blue eyes, probably fresh out of college. "Hi" I mumble quietly. This is total bs. I've been to so many different therapists I've lost count. Nothing has helped me.

I've had to be hospitalized because my anxiety, depression, bulimia, and being suicidal got so bad. The hospital just mad it worse. I quiver at the thought of that damn hospital.

My bulimia has gotten better because of instead of binging I just force myself to go on a run and dance. This whole year has been the lowest point point of my life, mentally, physically, and for dance up until now.

I've been starting to practice again and I'm starting to get my feel back. California and the boys are the best thing that's ever happened to me. "Tell me a little bit about what troubles you. What started all of this" she says while looking through my files, snapping me out of my thoughts.

There's literally no point to this. Why should I even trust her, all she's going to  do is judge me. "Aria" she sighs. " I know you don't want to be here but I want to help you. Ive been a victim of bullying and have suffered from some of the things that you've been through. I have the scars to prove it"

She says as she shifts uncomfortably, pulling her sleeves down. I catch a glimpse of her scars. Maybe she's telling the truth. "I-I don't know."I say starting to feel nervous and anxious. She scans over me. "We don't have to talk about it today if you don't want to sweetheart. How about we get to know each other a bit?" she says gently.

I nod and we  start talking about dancing and makeup, I even tell her about the boys, and find we have a lot in common. She's actually a really sweet girl. She doesn't really feel like a therapist, but more so a friend.

She looks through my file again. "Aria, it says that you've been cyber bullied on twitter, Instagram, and snapchat as well as being bullied at school. Correct?" she asks. I nod and sigh. "Well we should start with baby steps. Maybe you should create new accounts for each and give it to the boys so you all can talk and stuff like that." she suggests. 

I bite my lip. Do I really want to start this again? "What if people from Myrtle Beach find me and start to bully me again... Im back to a healthy weight and my cuts are healing. Im finally happy." I say getting teary eyed. I can't let that happen to me again.

I'll slip back into the hole I was in. "Aria, I'm saying this to you because I care about your well being. You can't let them win. You need to fight for your happiness and be strong. Be strong Aria. I know you've been kicked down to the ground more times than you can count without any chance of getting up but your here now. Your alive and getting better, I can see it. Theres still room for a lot of improvement but you've made progress on your own and that says a lot about your character. Your strong Aria, believe in it." She says seriously.

I nod and sigh. Maybe I'll try this her way and see how things turn out. By the time we're done talking its 2 p.m. We say goodbye and I walk out to my car, driving to Starbucks. Sadie gave me her number, snap, Instagram, and twitter. Maybe she'll be different than all the other shitty therapists.