Hopeful SM

Telling you I care

Shawn's POV

I love Hayden more than anything. She is my everything and I get that she thinks that we're going to fast but if I didn't have Hayden I wouldn't be happy.

My last girlfriend ruined me. I loved her she was my best friend then she broke me and left me in pieces. Hayden came willing to pick up those pieces, and I'm willing to pick up hers as well.

Hayden and I were laying on her bed till she looked up at me and said "Shawn? I need to tell you something important." I looked at her as she got slightly teary eyed.

"Love, what's wrong?"she looked up at me and said "Shawn, I-I have to tell you something and if you feel as if you don't want me an-" I looked at her straight in the eyes and said "I'll always want you Hayden. Please tell me what's wrong."

She looked at me with tears falling down her cheeks. "Shawn, when I was younger my mum had a child after me we were 2 years apart, a-and since I was born with multiple health issues my mother aborted the baby. And every night I cry and tell my self it was my fault for my brother not being her. She aborted him because I scared her. It's all my fault."

I hugged her in my arms and said "Hayden it's not your fault. It was your moms decision not yours. And I know you think it's your fault because you scared your mother but it's not. She made the decision on her own."

Hayden's POV

Shawn held me tight in his arms as we lied on my bed. He started singing:

"I watch your troubled eyes as you rest
And I fall in love with every breath
Wonder if those eyes are really shut
And am I the one you're dreaming of
'Cause underneath the darkness
There's a light that is trying so hard to be seen
And I know this, cause I'm noticed,
A little bit shining through the seams

And if this is what it takes,
Then let me be the one to bear the pain
Oh if this is what it takes,
I'll break down these walls that are in our way
If this is what it takes

You keep on telling me I'm wasting time
But to call it wasting time, oh that's a crime
And you thinks it's crazy what I'm tryna do
Well baby I'm a fool for you
'Cause underneath the darkness
There's a light that is trying so hard to be seen
And I know this, cause I'm noticed
A little bit shining through it seams

And if this is what it takes,
Then let me be the one to bear the pain
Oh if this is what it takes,
I'll break down these walls that are in our way

'Cause if you don't understand yet
Then I'll never let you forget
That you don't have to do this on your own
I'll be your shoulder to lean on
I'll be your right when you feel wrong
So come on take my hand we're moving on

And if this is what it takes,
Then let me be the one to bear the pain
Oh and if this is what it takes,
I'll break down these walls, these walls that are in our way
If this is what it takes"

He stopped and I looked at him he was crying. I looked at him and I started crying in sympathy (I actually do this, it's pretty pathetic). He whipped my tears and said "Don't cry because of me, please."

He kissed my forehead and said "If this is what it takes I'll be the one to bear the pain." I kissed him and hugged him tightly. He hugged me back and I said "I love you Shawn. Your my everything, your my right when I feel wrong."