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chapter 2

and so next day came, i was in my same spot in the forest, listening to some music, but this time the situation was a bit different, i was crying.

it felt like a 50 pound block made of stress and anxiety hit me, everything just hit me, to be honest it was my mistake for bottling all and not telling a friend or something, i cracked and couldn't handle everything and so i started crying alone in the forest, and then i felt a hand on my shoulder, i looked up and it was Chris, i quickly wiped my tears and said trying to stable my voice "Hi, Chris!", he sat beside me and looked at me with worried eyes and said "what's wrong?", i couldn't tell him why i was crying it was a long depressing story and i didn't want to get him all depressed and stuff so i had to cover it up and say a lame excuse so i said " oh it's nothing don't worry"

"nothing? don't lie to me, you were obviously crying"

"crying doesn't always mean despair you know, i can legit be crying because i ate a very delicious cake, or i finally found that book i was searching for"

"Ha ha very funny, you were obviously crying because you were sad, these tears are sad tears not happy tears, even i can tell the difference"

"really, it's nothing, don't worry about it, i am fine i just got a bit stressed about studying that's it, so don't worry"

"are you sure? like, very sure?"

"yes i am very very sure" and i smiled to assure him nothing was wrong even though in reality my hear and body was breaking to pieces.

" studying isn't worth your tears" he then said " grades are grades,you got a bad mark so what?! forget it and focus on the next one, don't think about it too much cause if you do u will just get so stress and end up the way you were a few moments ago"

i looked at the lake and said " you're right, i shouldn't be stressing over it, thanks" then i continued "so, how is the town so far? did you get used to it?"

 he sighed a bit and stretched his legs a bit and said " it's going fine, not much stuff to have fun with but if you have a laptop. smart phone and a fast WiFi you will do fine, oh and of course snacks " and smiled.

he looked... cute, that smile of him made him look like a child which was extremely cute.

then he asked me " what do you do for fun here?"

to be honest even i had no flipping idea, i either come to the forest here or just watch some korean drama/ kpop and anime, i didn't know how to answer cause i was high key a lame person who got no activities to do.

i paused, and kept pausing and thinking

"helloo, earth to Rosie, was my question this hard?" he said jokingly.

i looked t him and said " I- I don't know, i never thought about it actually, Wow i am lame"

he looked at me like (you serious?) then he said "there must be something to do here"

"not really i never thought about it, i either come here or just watch some movies and stuff back home"

"really?, that's it?"

"for me yes that's it"...." did i disappoint you?" i said in a joking manner

" not disappoint me it just i thought there were some stuff to do here"

" to be honest you asked the wrong the person, i am literally the lamest person you can know, my fun is different than other people's  fun"

"how so?"

"hmm, for example, most people's definition of a good party is lots of people being together and drinking till dawn and playing some random game and just dancing to loud music, for me the definition of a good party is choosing a good movie and a table full of snacks and food and my closest friends and we just watch the movie and talk about really random stuff with some music in the background and of course some dancing" i then continued " and my kinda fun too is walking along side a reaaalllyyy long road  with flowers from every color at the sides while listening to music and just randomly dancing while walking, wah i really hope it happens one day" i got a bit carried away while describing my kind of fun and when i looked at him i found him staring at at me, i didn't know what was he thinking about, was he saying i am weird? was he asking himself what the hell is she talking about? he face confused me.

so i asked "what''s wrong? is there something on my face?"

he answered after a moment like he suddenly snapped in reality or something

" oh nothing it just.. you looked cute getting all excited and stuff" and then he looked at the lake

  i didn't know what to say, i have lived in this earth for 19 years and i never heard a guy say i  looked cute so i just stared at the grass and said very quietly "thanks"

he smiled then at me the most heartwarming smile i have seen.

it made me feel like we were the only two people in this world, and for a moment i forgot every problem i had.