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Admin Ramblings

I'm tired of the drama sometimes that's going on

And I just want to help and interfere

But I know that's going to make it worse, high tensions, temper reaches boiling point and TO will all explode from there

While I'm just a observer to the pain-

And I want to be a hero but I'm afraid

And scared

This bullshit happening

Makes me sick sometimes

Really-

Sometimes fate loves throwing curve balls left and right

Maybe this is why I stopped giving a shit and started numbing my emotions, ha

I want to know what makes people laugh, because I feel

My ways aren't strong enough

And I want them to focus on me

Away from the pain

And I want to talk them

Even if I look like I'm calm

Really I'm just scared, anxious, afraid, and tired

But I have to block out my emotions because I can't risk it getting in the way as I try to emphasize with them

And I want to rant at those people who were the perpetrators

But that really makes me no better than them I feel