I'm Sorry

Pain/Mask

A/n ik I always put mask, but there's a reason for that.

We suffer everyday
If not it's only me
I'm hanging from a rope
A rope only I can see

For me it's in plain sight
For you there's nothing there
But it's true they can't see through my mask
For that it's only fair

Quite a time to suffer
Quite a day to shine
It's quite a place to ponder
About a mask you'll never find

I just want to fade away
Away into such depths
Into such a depths of hell
I'll then start with the steps

You would've known had you known me
Known the little pain inside my head
The pain inside my heart
And the pain I've never said

Perfection is what I have to be
Failure I can't afford
My life is crumbling in my hands
The pain is like a sword

Many years I'll wait
For the day I'll truly shine
For all my failures have gone
For that you'll never find

And one day I'll tell myself
"Let go of who you are
The source of all our failures
Throw it far and far."

Cause that is who I am
And that is what I'll be
A perfect self and perfect mind
And then one day you'll see

That is not who I am
This is who I'll be
I forgot how to live a life
So please... help me

A/n I'm alive don't worry. However I can relate to this. In a way I felt a pain and i have a fear of failure so in a way, i "have to be perfect" I mean I don't, but failures for me is like a cut. It leaves a scar and I cant have a scar because the saying you're perfect just the way you are won't be true if I have that scar to tell me I'm not perfect. so I can relate. Anywho I hoped you enjoyed. And don't worry I'm fine and safe and alive so don't worry.