I'm Sorry

A Different Kind Of Note

It was never yours
But always mine
Just me to blame
For the end of time

My family friends
I will always cherish
But sometimes I wish
I could suddenly perish

I've decided to walk
I've decided to drop
I decided I'd wait
Until I couldn't talk

I chose this month
This particular month the fool
I think it was just me
My truth is somewhat cruel

So for the worries I've caused
I've only ended the blame
Please do not fear
For it was my mistake

For I have sinned and lied
Lied and tried
But tried too hard
I started to cry

I couldn't be within all
I was always out
And even I couldn't keep up
With classes here and about

Words are words
Yet actions are actions
If I do end my life
It was only my reaction

So please do not pin it
Do not pin it on yourself
For it is I and only I
Who chose to make it my own shelf

My own shelf?
More like baggage
I mean I couldn't make friends
Let alone manage

But I despise pity
I do not want the comfort
For it would make me safer
A little happier and a bit more hurt

But talking makes me feel
A feeling of only humiliation
Regret maybe guilt?
Oh please I'm not seeking attention

I just don't want to speak
Because speaking requires talking
And talking is only necessary
When you are sulking

But I just want to naturally go
Go as planned as always
I want to forget I tried to end
So please deny my phase

I'm sure it'll pass
As long as I change
Change and forget
Forget until I'm strange

I'll call up a friend
Such a friend full of nothing
For nothing is the bargain
For my life to the next thing

The thing so dark and cruel
So fake yet so real
Some may try so hard
To take my friend and seal

So if I do end my life
Yet again
Try do stop me
And I shall find and gain

One more chance
In hopes I would find
But if I don't
Would you please end my life.

A/n wow that was a lot darker than I had expected....... welp