A clean man
I was submerged in the hypnotic waves of Telepathy, dancing on the balls of my feet with my coffee - I felt happy, like the light in me was finally shining again
I felt my love expand in my chest, I remembered you in my dream (it was nice seeing you again) I found you finally
oh baby boy, in another life perhaps -
A clean man,
head tilted so angelically, the music stopped for just a second and my heart jolted
my jaw dropped ever so slightly, I had almost forgotten the way you could get me so fixated on your sweet smile,
oh god I was so lost in you, I miss it. I miss you seeing me like I saw you
I don't quite ache for you as I once did. I don't hold such hostile feelings for you, I know now it was not meant to happen I suppose, though I still ponder how our love would have been if I had let it flourish - if I had just poured my feelings out for you
we had unspoken words, unspoken promises and silent love letters poured into each other with each lasting look, with each touch
I had you and you had me
in another universe, we're probably spending tender nights overlooking the sky on the highest point of the hill where in reality, I was left looking after your diminishing form walking further and further away from me
by my side is where you belonged, I felt a part of me walking away - such wasted potential slipping away
you kept on looking back, I know, I wanted so badly to run after you, to profess my desire for you
the words were left on the tip of our tongues,
I kept on mouthing them to myself, needing to get them out of my system somehow someway to get rid of the gentle aching of a love lost.
'baby, I -'
- but as the semblance of what could have been reaches the forefront of my mind I return to my living room, coffee in hand music still playing. a taste of slight bittersweetness stuck in my mouth.
your sweet existence is still enough for me
A clean man, you are. a good friend. I saw the good in you. I still do.
to feel the love and light in my core on this sweet morning and you visiting my psyche, that's all I could have asked for
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a/n: I saw a picture unexpectedly of somebody I used to care for a Whole Lot and instead of feeling sad about it, I was filled with a sense of peace knowing he's okay,
haha this is like a journal entry oh goodness well I hope you are feeling well - remember to drink water, eat some fruit maybe if u can, take care of yourself, and be nice to people !!
dedicated 2 Ava cos she's a wonderful friend and poet !
