ANGEL DOWN 一＞ JEFF ATKINS

Ch. 19

Amelia's POV
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Present Day

"He's dead" I said feeling the world crash down on my shoulders as the tears fell involuntarily

My mom was hugging me with all her might as the person on the phone continued talking "We would like you come over with his parents and confirm it"

My heart thumped as more tears fell "O-Okay"

"Thank you for your time Ms. Robinson, so very sorry for your loss" They said before the line went dead and my mom took the phone from my hand

I slid down the wall with my head in my hands "It's all my fault" I sobbed

"No no no baby no it's not please don't say that" She said sitting next to me and I rested my head on her shoulder

"Maybe if I told him I loved him more and.. and spent more time with him he wouldn't have gone to that stupid party and he wouldn't b-"

She cut me off "You loved him with all of your heart and he loved you too. He felt it and he knew it. Please don't EVER say that it's your fault"

I sobbed more and tried to get closer to her. I tried to speak but the words got caught as a sob as I wrapped my arms around her waist sobbing uncontrollably. All the while she was rocking me back and forth telling me that she loves me

We eventually got up and decided it was time to go to the Atkins' house. When I got out, I took a deep breath and knocked on the door. Mrs. Atkins immediately opened it and engulfed me in a hug

She let out a sob and looked me holding my shoulders as I held for dear life on her hips "He loved you so much" She whispered

I let a tear leave my eye "He loved you with all of his heart. You too" I said turning to Mr. Atkins who held his arms open which I accepted and gave him a tight hug

Mrs. Atkins grabbed my hand and we walked to the car we all piled in and I rested my head on my mothers shoulder feeling the tears start again

I tried not to think about where we were going but every time I closed my eyes I saw him smiling at me

We eventually got to the morgue feeling a weight on my shoulders again. I linked my arm in my moms as all four of us walked in with our heads held high trying to act strong but everyone could tell we were broken by our expressions. We got to the desk and told them our names (A/N: keep in mind I've never been to a morgue before so I have no idea how they work) and the lady led us to a separate room where we had to wait for a man to come in and show us the body. We all say down and I grabbed onto Mrs. Atkins hand again along with my mothers and we waited for what seemed like eternity. The man finally came in telling us the procedure and how everything worked but I didn't pay much attention to the details before we were allowed to get up and follow him to a dark ish room where a body laid under a blanket making me sob. We got in and the man slowly removed the blanket so we could see his face

The first thing I did was gasp and let go of my mothers hand to clamp my own over my mouth as I felt tears again. I heard everyone sobbing as I wrapped my arms around Mrs. Atkins and we sobbed together

I looked up "Can I?" I asked teaching my hand out looking at the man and he simply nodded

I reached my hand out all the way and pushed his hair out of his eyes and my heart broke seeing him like this. Fresh tears fell again as I dropped to my knees feeling the world fall apart all around me. I continued running my hand through his hair before he told us that it was time to go

I grabbed a tissue and tried to wipe the uncomfortable tears off my face but new ones kept replacing them so I gave up. We walked out and got back in the car. The ride was silent and I looked out the window praying to get my Jeff back but I knew that would never happen