Beep Beep I Need Sleep [Random/Bio Book 3]

why not

the abuse thing from tumblr---

Felt like putting this here because idk i felt like doing it on here and not tumblr for some reason

  Let's play, "was I abused" game! Reblog and bold the things your parents have done to you! Italicize if you're not sure. (copy paste it all and then bold)  

  Physical abuse  

parent slapped me to prove their point/teach me a lesson

parent spanked me as a "punishment" saying it was for my own good

parent pulled on my hair to force me to moveparent threw things at me while angry, things heavy enough to hurt me

parent trapped me into a room/corner so I couldn't escape them

parent hit me when I wouldn't obey them/tried to confront them

parent used a twig/stick/belt to lash at my body

parent grabbed me to force me to pay attention to them

parent pinned me down and physically prevented me from escaping

parent brought me into situations where I feared for my lifeparent made it painfully obvious for me that I'll obey them or suffer injuriesparent threatened to beat me if I wouldn't do as they sayparent forcefully fed me something I refused to eat

parent made an attempt at strangling/drowning/burning me

parent banged my head/body into the wall/furnitureparent forced me into sexual activities

Emotional abuse

parent called me derogatory names and slurs more than once

parent said my name mostly with hatred and scorn in their voice

parent degraded and humiliated me in front of others for funparent insulted and devalued something really important to meparent deprived me of something that meant the world to me

parent yelled and swore at me in anger more than onceparent blamed me for things that were out of my control/not my faultparent shamed me for my physical appearanceparent guilt-tripped me for not pleasing them well enough

parent regarded me as a burden, and shamed me for needing them at all

parent insisted I couldn't take a joke after I got hurt from their insults

parent never comforted me/got angry if I reached for comfortparent punished me for crying/showing fear/showing trauma symptoms

parent humiliated me for showing excitement and happinessparent subtly let me know that my feelings and my problems don't matterparent got angry at me for feeling depressed/angry/tired/suicidalparent compared me to cousins/other children to prove how I'm the worstparent decided for me how I feel when it was convenient for themparent told me that I was crazy/delusional/need to be locked awayparent threatened me with kicking me out/sending away if I don't changeparent refused to accept my sexuality/tried to force it to changeparent required for me to act normal to protect family's reputationparent isolated me from family activities they all enjoyparent assured me that nobody will ever want meparent insisted that I was lucky and that I could have had it much worseparent made me responsible for their well being and made me the caretakerparent insisted that their harmful acts were all made "out of love"parent demanded me to be available for their requests at any timeparent punished me for trying to establish boundariesparent destroyed my belongings as a revengeparent made inappropriate sex jokes and comments in my presenceparent denied doing any of this and insists that all the blame is on me

Psychological Abuse

parent kept pointing out my flaws as proofs that I wont achieve anythingparent called me stupid, incompetent, ignorant, while withholding information that I needed to know in order to complete tasksparent would change their side of the agreement in crucial moment and then pretend it was obvious from the startparent stalked me/distrusted me without any reason/invaded my privacy
parent attacked my insecurities and vulnerabilities in any argumentparent forced me into degrading actions while they watched me do itparent threatened to leave meparent accused me regularly of behaving the way they didparent never acknowledged, praised or approved of my actionsparent always demanded they are right without any proof/explanationparent insisted that they're a great parent using financial support as proofparent insisted that I should be grateful for how good they are to meparent gaslighted me and tried to make me believe my memories weren't real if I confronted them with what they did 

Neglect

parent didn't notice I haven't been eating properly
parent didn't notice I was sick/didn't care for me while I was sickparent didn't notice I was injuredparent didn't notice I didn't have clothes/shoes I needed for schoolparent didn't notice I suffered from traumaparent didn't notice I was anxious and stressedparent didn't notice I was depressedparent didn't notice I was cutting myself
parent didn't notice I was suicidalparent didn't notice I was being sexually abusedparent didn't notice I was being bulliedparent failed to get me medical attention when it was neededparent failed to teach me the very basics of self careparent didn't seem to notice any of my needs and feelings except the absolute minimum I required to survivewhen I notified them of these things, they denied it, accused me of lying, decided it wasn't happening and/or blamed me for it

Financial Abuse

parent made me feel ashamed for needing moneyparent made me feel like I'm a financial burden to themparent only gave me minimal money to surviveparent made sure I never have a decent amount of money on meparent took the money I earned from meparent used the money to blackmail me (if you continue this way let's see who will pay for your bus ticket!)parent insisted since they "pay for my stuff" they have the right to control my behaviour and actionsparent had enough money for luxury but kept me without anythingparent refused to get my medicine/get me medical attention because it's too expensive while they got everything for themselvesparent would keep me anxious over if they would pay my expenses or notparent would make me do as much work for them as possible before they would pay for a necessityparent kept me in the dark over family finances even when I was of ageparent would make sure I never have enough money to escape them

well shit that's a lot more than i thought there would be

thanks dad

((sorry the spacing is fucked up??? wattpad wyd))