Beep Beep I Need Sleep [Random/Bio Book 3]

edgy vent #1

y'know

im out of coping mechanisms

might as well just...

sleep all day? idfk at this point

might as well just give up? if i havent already done that

my grades are shit, my dad abandoned me, im just gonna ??

like ive tried everything

everyone told me "Get help"

so i tried.

first, i told my family how i felt.

they laughed it off.

i showed them how i felt by self harming in an obvious place instead of on my thighs,

i got therapy again and moved schools.

but nothing changed.

i tried again with the self harm on my arms,

nothing changed except "promise you wont do it again!!!" and "you're making me look bad ))):"

i literally TOLD THEM I WAS SUICIDAL

nothing changed!!! just a "k this is??? embarassing???"

then i just 

gave up on my grades

"grounded. even with all the shit going on, i expect you to get all A's. you're embarrassing us."

i tried explaining again why im failing and everything,

nothing changed.

i tried telling my therapist i felt like dying and/or running away.

she just told me not to and thats it.

what the fuck am i supposed to do at this point?