(Pics above) i was at a photoshoot getting ready to leave to go to an interview when kendall texted me "Justin's having a party he told me to invite you" i read
Me: will selena be there
Her: no
Me: i'm still not going
Her: this is ridiculous you love selena
Me: obviously I love her that's why I can't go
Me: selena and i's friendship means more than then
liking a guy even if that guy is Justin
Her: okay
I went to my interview i was wearing (pic above #1)
"Our first guest is a one the most famous teenagers in the world. Not only because of the people around her but because of her amazing modeling career and, her life and her new music...please welcome 19 year old Jessica west" ellen announced i walked out the audience was clapping i was smiling and waving i walked over to ellen
"oh my god hi" I hugged her the audience stopped clapping "hi nice to meet you how are you" we let go of the hug we sat down in the chairs "i'm good how are you" i told her "good" she said "so you have been on 52 magazine covers in the usa
20 in Canada and modeled for stores like H&m teamed up with adidas coach, moschino walked the victoria's secret fashion show three times and you are number one and two on iTunes with bad reputation and perfect congratulations" she told me
"thank you so much but I can't take all the credit my team and manager and fans are the reason I love what I do" i told her they clapped then they stopped "so um are you dating anyone" she asked "no i'm single and I'm okay with that" i said
"so i have to ask you were offered to do a photoshoot for playboy magazine and you turned it down why?".. She asked "yeah I did um I love playboy magazine and that was always a dream of mine but I'm 17 years old maybe
when I'm older but I good friend of mine a person who I look up to didn't want me to do it he was like all upset because I wanted to do it and he's like your like my little sister that's like seeing my little sister naked in public no thank you and I thought about it for a long time and I couldnt do it so I denied there offer"
Later 8pm
Kendall: Come to the party
Me: why should I
Her: because you need to go get him
Her: the party starts at 9 at Justin's house
9:20
I texted kendall what time is his party over
Her: I don't know people are drinking so some are staying and some are getting a Uber ride
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I was all ready for bed and in bed i couldnt sleep i kept looking at Justin's and is picture by my bed i finally got up and put my glasses on and walked into the bathroom and got a quick shower shaved under my arms,my legs, and down there then turned the water got out and dried off and dried my hair and did my hair
and make up and walked out of the bathroom i changed into (pic above#2) grabbed my phone and keys and turned the lights off and locked the doors and drove to Justin's house i knocked on the door Justin answered "Jessica i missed you so much" he hugged me and picked up "justin stop im wearing a dress" i told him
"so" he spun me around then stopped and put me down "you look amazing" he told me "thank you" i told him "you came but kendall told me you weren't" he said "i changed my mind" i told him he smiled grabbed my hand and pulls me into his house and shuts the door i hung out with him for a while
"You have to tell him" she told me "no i don't I'm not going to they're meant to be together i would get in the way" i told her "they haven't spoken in a long time and selenas friends and family don't like him and she's dated the weeknd" she told me "but her heart belongs to justin" i told her "so does yours" she snapped
11 pm
"Come on Jessica you love him he's all you've ever wanted you need to tell him" she told me "i can't it would crush selena he's hers not mine i don't want to hurt her "you need to hell him how you feel you can't hide it forever" she said
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