Dear Caleb [COMPLETED]

11.

You.
You are all I can think about today.

That day in the ice cream shop that we spent together was perfect.

But something was off.
It just felt different and wrong.

I can't point it out and that's what makes it so frustrating.

Yesterday was going good until Mason showed up & it's like he flipped a switch in you.

And I didn't like that.
You didn't try to stop him verbally, you directly hit him.

I was confused. I still am.

I wondered how Mason didn't know that we had dated.
But then I remembered that nobody ever knew about us because you wanted to keep it that way.
And me being an anti-drama girl, agreed.

Tomorrow, Saturday is graduation day and after this weekend, everyone is going their separate ways.

Knowing this,
for one last time,
I let myself think of our happy times.

How we used to enjoy so much together.
Talk, laugh, dance.
We did every crazy thing.

And I loved those ocean blue eyes of yours that I could get lost in forever.

I loved those silly faces you made whenever I got mad at you.

I loved the way you always smiled and talked to me.

Most of all, I loved you.

At least I thought I did.

But not anymore.

Because if anything, the past two days that I spent with you made me realise that it wasn't you that I missed but everything that we used to be and probably could've been.

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