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Here I am again
Feeling this unexplainable emotion
Like a stone being crushed
Like a water being frozenI hate you
But I hate myself more
I dont usually believe in lies
But I eventually believe yoursHow did you do that?
Saying things as if you mean it
Pretending I was always the one who hurts you
Making me feel the guiltYou're like a switch of light
On, off, on, off
For you I'll matter today
But tomorrow you'll definitely throw me awayFor some Im the cold bitch who makes you suffer
Im the bad one, you're the good guy
Funny, they dont even know a thing
Among us two, Im the one hurtingIt's because they cant see it
How you can break my heart with just one word
It's because they dont feel it
How you can manipulate my feelings as if you have the remote controlSometimes Im loosing myself
I despise the fact of unconsciously missing you
I dont like it when I see you
But I hate it more when you dont show yourselfI've always wanted to talk to you
I waited and waited till you're ready
But I lost in vain
You made me like a fool againHow many times was it already?
Was hurting me makes you happy?
I was fine before I met you
Now I cant even smile, damn youI only aged once a year
But you want me to shed a tear
Many people wanted me to be happy
But you destroyed it, totallyI hope you won't be surprised
When I come back being cold as ice
You're the one who blew off my fire
You're the one who cut my growing desire09/17/17