It's been years
since I last saw your face
You, the man,
who first made my heart race
It's been years
since you'd been gone
No doubt, I'd moved on
I approached you
with a very big hug
Much to my dismay
it now lacks warmth
Your hold was almost
as suffocating
But for me it felt
almost as nothing
We enjoyed
each other's company
Unminding the pain
you had left me
We talked about
almost everything
Like you leaving me
didn't even happened
When the night came
We bid our goodbyes
Yet soon as I turned
you held my hand
Told me you'll see me
the very next day
Nodding my head
I faked you a smile
for seeing you is the
very last thing I want.
Flowers kept
my tears at bay
On those times I hated
everything about us
Flowers became
the sunshine I kept seeing
when my world stopped creating
days
And so I started producing them
and watered them with every drop
of love I should've poured into you
To my surprise,
they've grown into a beautiful garden
with plenty of butterflies and bees
surrounding every corner
and it made me so happy,
so much I have forgotten you left
without a warning
But now that I see you standing
on the very front porch of my paradise
looking so weak, broken and sad,
your eyes looking straight into mine,
I feel
that
my
world
is
about
to
crush
once
again.
Not because
I still love you
but because I'm afraid
I'll begin believing again that
for once you loved me and now
you still do.
You missed us.
I laughed upon hearing it
from you.
It's funny.
How you missed everything
we are when you still managed to go far.
How you acted like a stranger when I bombarded you with mesages and letters containing a lot of questions in my head.
How you say you missed 'US' when you are unable to say even 'how have you been' during those times you made me insane missing you.
Did you really missed US?
Or you are just missing those days where I was a fool out of you?
Nonetheless, I care no more.
So I gave you a flower with a color symbolizing friendship.
Afterall, It's all that I could offer.
I saw you look at the flower
on your palm
Looking awful, very sad
You told me 'Baby I dont understand'
But took a step backward
when I showed you my hand
'I'm getting married' I said with a smile
Held your hand adding 'Please be there'
Still frozen, I saw a tear fell from your eyes, and my very big question WHY?
A/N: I don't think this made sense but I don't want to disregard or erase it either.
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