i smiled.
it's real this time. i really mean it, it's real this time.
the corners of my mouth curl naturally and the soft sound of my broken voice comes out in a laugh.
a laugh.
a real one this time.
i smile and make a comment, making the others laugh. i savored the moment and began to look at my friends.
happy.
they were happy - at least that's what it looked like.
i then frowned, why was everyone else around me so happy and yet i could rarely smile genuinely and honestly ?
"are you okay?"
no, my heart is in shreds and my brain is thrashing in my skull from all the unspoken words i am afraid to whisper.
my soul is tired and worn out from lying and faking. i seek genuine happiness and find none, none but a forced smile.
my heart is aching and begging for release from all the emotions i feel but do not speak of.
neglected, abused, bruised, hurt and kicked to the curb.
you're strong you'll be fine.
oh crap i haven't answered !
"yes - i'm just happy."
the voices in my head calm and i sit back, wearing my mask and hiding my pain.
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Unspoken Words
Randombecause sometimes it's easier to write down how you feel rather than say it out loud. ⚠️ trigger warning ⚠️