Mania

Achluomania

(n.)  An obsession, passion or infatuation with darkness

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I feel like who I am

when i'm in the dark,

is someone unlike myself

my thoughts start to race

and my mind starts to chase

after these thoughts 

that will never be written down 

because the words are falling fast

and the emotion stays still

as I lie to myself

saying

"everything is as it will"

but the stars are crashing

and they're all that I can see

because the dark is all consuming

and it terrifies me

because the words  that are rushing

I can't describe the way the stars fall

and they can't tell 

of the sound

of the silence

of it all

The darkness is leaking

like paint onto me

and it covers my eyes

i can no longer see the sky

and the stars that are trailing

down my cheeks

The silence is gone

the darkness is here

leaving me simply

with a ringing in my ears

the darkness settles on my skin

a cotton blanket for my fingertips

and eyelids

and my breathing calms down

one and two and three

breathe out the stardust 

breathe in to be free.

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