Twegen(2) Tape
"Good Morning, as you can see I'm still in my bed basically I just woke up yesterday was a fine day and yep pretty normal." I stood up and started walking through the bathroom positioning the camera in a good angle before I start to freshen up my face. Making funny faces in front of the camera is the only thing that I've done, and doing some crazy stuffs like humming a song while brushing my teeth, dancing around and some random stuffs.
I finish my morning routine, getting ready to visit Jihoon as usually when I walked around in the living room I accidentally saw our photo album that I've kept when I leaved him. Thinking that it's a good idea for today, putting the photo album in my bag and sighing that everything is gonna be okay, I can endure this and wait for Jihoon.
Almost reaching my destination for a while but I saw a flower shop near in front of the cafe, thinking it kay be a good idea putting flowers in Jihoon's room, I immediately go inside of the shop, the fragrance of the flowers was at the tip of my nose it was a calming smell, it was like him.
"Good morning sir!" Someone greeted me, I bowed into them and started looking for a flower. One flower caught my attention, it was Tulips but the red one, I walk through the flower still holding my video cam, is this fine? This flower it doesn't mean anything bad, right?
"You've got a good eyes sir." The worker in the shop butts in my business, not that I don't want anyone to suddenly talk to me, I guess she has the great timing because I'm confused if I'm going to buy this one.
"Thanks?" That's the only thing that I've said.
"Ahah sir don't nervous, you know tulips can be the same in types but different when it comes to their meanings, Pink tulips means Caring, Purple Tulips mean Royalty." She suddenly blurted out, I don't know what happened to me and suddenly taking my video cam in her direction.
"And Red Tulips means 'believe in me', declaring your love that you will never let go no matter what circumstances you will have, longing for perfect love even though it is impossible, it's like wishing for forever yet you can't have it but all you can do is precious the time you left." She finished her sentence while tears forming in the edges of her eyes, she wiped it off and I turned off my video cam satisfied with what I've heard.
"Then I'll get this one." Pointing the Red Tulips and she immediately a dozen of it, I go to the counter waiting for the flower. When it was finished and ready to give my payment, I thanked her.
"Your lover will be happy." She said with a smile, I smiled back at her but a faint smile, remembering Jihoon isn't awake and just bed ridden in a white bed.
"I wish that too." I gave her my payment walking out of the shop, I didn't open my video cam until I arrived at Jihoon's room, putting the flowers inside of a vase then sitting at my very own usual place.
I opened my video cam starting the day off, I moved closer to Jihoon so that our faces will be shown at the video, when I was satisfied with the angle I started talking non stop, with all the encounters I have gone through. When remembering the photo album in my bad, I rapidly pulled it out of my bag and positioning myself beside Jihoon, and then I opened the album still holding the camera in my other hand.
When I saw the inside of the photo album our memories suddenly flashed in my mind, it started to hit my heart so hard, if I could just turn back the time. Going through the pages I saw the picture when we first talked to my mother about our relationship.
"Jihoon, remember that time when I introduced you as my girlfriend to my mother? You were stomping your feet at me because you're not a girl and why would you be my girlfriend when we're both guys? Though my mother agreed that you should be the girl in our relationship, we ate dinner with her laughing about how I'm so naughty when I was a child, or telling you about my mother how our story begun. Time flies by huh, that was years ago." I stopped in the mid way, getting too emotional with what I'm doing yet flipping the pages and telling to the sleeping Jihoon pointless stories even though he can't hear it.
It's fine as long as it can help you remember me when you woke up.
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Feowertiene(14) Tape
Weeks passed like that, me making countless video when I visit Jihoon, still he won't wake up. But my hope is still here knowing that Jihoon will wake up. His parents visits sometimes because they know I'm always by his sides telling stories.
Right now I'm not in Jihoon's room, but at the sea waiting for the sunset to come, feeling up the cold breeze through my skin, it was chilly yet refreshing, the scent of the ocean thats lingering in my nose, and the beautiful sky that's ready for the sunset to show, the color where mixed together like they are perfect for each other, it was addicting.
When The sunset showed, I hold my camera to the direction of it not showing my face, only the sunset that's flashing in front of my eyes.
"Hey, when you wake up and watched this videos, I hope you can remember even just a little bit, just say my name like I'll only be yours, like the old days, hugging my, holding my hands, Nagging me because you want attention. Jihoon.... Please wake up." My tears bursted out silently, while watching the scenery, the sunset where fading away yet you can still see the colors that blends so well.
The breeze that touching my skin, the tears that flowing out through my cheeks, my arms thats in my pocket because no one is holding it.
And no one's beside me right now leaning in my shoulder to reminisce the scenery in front of me.
Jihoon.
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I'm sorry for the suddenly slow updates, ughhhhh it's my sembreak, I'm crying totally crying HUHUHUHUH (T_T), we only got one week I really hate my achool for that, but seriously I need to survive.
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