Starting over

Chapter 6 - The Backstory

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*Recap*

"Alex, this cant keep happening I have a boyfriend, who is your bestfriend. " I explain to him, still sitting on his lap. Probably not the best idea, since I'm straddling him, to tell him that we shouldn't be doing this. So, I climb off his lap and back into the drivers seat. I drive all the way to my house, without a word from Alex. I see his car at my house, that's why he wanted to come to my house, he left his car here. He walks me to the front door. "Ash," he says to me looking at the ground. "Yeah," I say quietly. He doesn't say anything, he just kisses me again. His hands are pulling me to him, on my waist. My hands wrap around his neck, on impulse. I have full control still. I know exactly what I'm doing. "Screw it," I say and pull him into my house and to my room.

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Ashlynn's P.O.V

We get into my room, and immediately lay on my bed. He starts kissing me again, and I dont complain. He layed me down gently, and stops kissing me to look at me. He gave me a look like he was asking for my permission. My brain is going crazy. Half of my brain, the hormonal side, is telling me to do it. The other logical side, is telling me hell no. So.....you see what I'm dealing with. I know that the logical side should win. So, I let it win....to an extent. I wont have sex with Alex. Just make out with Alex. "Kiss me," i say to him, and he, like on instinct, puts his hands on both sides of my face, and kisses me. We keep kissing until I hear something downstairs. My mom. Crap. I back away from Alex, and say,"My mom is home," with an apologetic face. He smirks and kisses me again. I hear her coming towards my door, and me and Alex grab my laptop, to make it look like we were watching Netfilx. Haha. Netflix & Chill. Haha.... my mom then comes in the door. "Hey mom," I say smiling up at her. "Hey sweetie and Alex," she says looking at Alex. "Hello Mrs. Smith," he says smiling at her. "Well I'm going to go back to the kitchen now," she says and leaves to go to the kitchen. I see that Christian texted me a while ago, so I decide I should call him. He's probably worried, I haven't texted him back in like an hour, freaking Alex distracting me. The phone is ringing, and Alex gives me a questionable look. I just mouth the name 'Christian' and he says oh. Kinda upset. I give him a little peck on the lips, just because I'm still high on his kiss. I could be high on his kiss.....for days. Christian doesn't answer. I decide not to think anything of it. I will just text him in the morning. Me and Alex put on some Netfilx. We are watching a baking show called 'Nailed It'. I dont remember most of it because moments later I was fast asleep.

I wake up in the middle of the night completely surrounded by the scent of Alex. Not that I mind... Oh my...This is not good. How am I supposed to get up when half of my body is under Alex? I try pushing him off of me, yeah...like that's gonna work. I decide to do something that is probably not the best idea, but I really have to pee, so... I don't have a choice. I try very hard to gather all of my non-existent strength, and somehow manage to roll over. Now, I am on top of Alex. Oh, what he would do to see this, too bad he's asleep. I quickly get up and run to the bathroom. Before I reach the door, I hear whispers from downstairs. I make sure to tip-toe to the edge of the stairs, so I can listen. "No, I cant leave tonight my daughter has her friend over," my mom says. Who is my mom talking to? "Yes, I could leave her alone with Kacey, but this isn't Kacey, it's that boy Alex," She says with a weird tone at the end. Like she knows something that I don't. What is she knows that me and Alex were making out? I have a boyfriend. What would she think of me? This is not good. Not at all. I have to stop it with Alex. Now. Like right now. Ok, maybe not right now, but in the morning. Ok. I should stop eavesdropping, my bladder cant take much more. I go to the restroom, and go downstairs, my mom already knows I'm awake, might as well eat, right? "Oh, hey Ashlynn, didn't know you were awake," my mom says with a wink. I give her a questionable look and say, "Yeah I woke up hungry, so I came downstairs to eat." "Ok honey, well I will be in my room," She says and runs with the phone like a teenage girl. So childish. I go in the kitchen and poor myslef a bowl of cereal. I start eating while leaning against the counter when 2 warm hands wrap around my waist. Now, I know whose hands these are. Alex. Whenever I feel his hands I gasp. He chuckles and puts his head on my right shoulder. "H-hi there," I say mentally face palming myslef. "Hello," he says, and turns my chair around to face him. "Wh-what are you d-doing?" I ask him, again mentally face palming myslef. "Are you asking me what I'm doing to you, because I don't know, what am I doing to you?" He asks me with a smirk. "Well I dont think I know what you mean," I lie. "Oh you know what I mean," he says with his adorable smirk. Crap. I cant be thinking like this. If I am going to be around Alex, it is as a friend only. That's all he is to me. I lo-nope. I like Christian. That's better. I cant believe I almost said I loved Christian. Eww. Wait? What? No, not eww. Right? Now my brain hurts. "Ash?" Alex says waving his hand around my face. "Oh, sorry I guess I zoned out..." I say still in a daze. "Thinking about our wedding?" He asked me with a smile. My cheeks heat up. Did he really just say that? "Wh-what?" I say stuttering again. "Oh dont worry I know you were thinking about me." He says. "No I wasn't," I say defending myself. "Uh-huh," he says smirking."I wasn't!!" I say, my cheeks getting redder by every second. "Ok, ok I believe you!" He says. "Ok then," I say and then stare into his eyes. Why do I want to hug him so badly? Oh. I dont. I want to kiss him. No. Nope. Not happening...again. I need to learn how to control myself, and my hormones, because that is all this is. Hormones. He starts leaning in and I dont do anything to stop him. Because, I dont want him to stop. I want to cheat on Christian. And I just might. Just as I thought this he kissed me. Not like when we were in my room, or when we were in the pool. It was different. Our lips moved in sync, and he kissed me with passion, passion that I could never understand. I wrapped my arms around his neck, and he lifted me out of the chair. He was now holding me, and my hands were lost in his hair. I want him so badly right now, and it's not like anybody is going to stop us. He started taking me upstairs, still kissing me. Then, we reached my room, and he shut the door and locked it. He sat my gently on my bed, laying on-top of me. We backed away for a minute, to catch our breath. As we looked at each other, I looked in his eyes and saw longing. He longed, for what I dont know. Just then, I remembered my boyfriend, and my mother awake in her room on the phone. And my lonesome bowl of cereal left on the counter. Remembering this, I looked into Alex's beautiful eyes, and pulled his head down to kiss me. One year rolled down my cheek. I dont understand why the test rolled down my cheek, but I knew what I had to do next. I wasn't ready. Not really anyways, and I never thought this would happen with Alex, but life is full on surprises. But, in this moment of pure bliss, I pushed Alex off of me gently, and said,"What are we doing?" Now, I didn't necessarily mean, that I wanted to stop, but I just wanted to know. Know how he felt about me. Know everything. But, he said nothing. He just looked at me. "Is it always going to be him?" He asked me. I didnt understand the question. I looked at him questionably. "Wh-" I tried to say. "Save it," he said with a cold look, and walked out of my door. I lay there now, remember only moments ago when I was only focused on one thing, him. That's what made me jump up to go get him. That's why whenever I saw him going to walk out my front door, I turned him around and kissed him with everything I had in me. He was shocked at first, I guess he didn't know how to respond. Soon after, he kissed me back. Our lips molding together, as if they were meant to be that way. Everything else in the world disappeared, and suddenly, right then, I knew what had happened. I knew why I was hear right now. I have known for a while. I was madly in love with none other then Alex Surlock. And I was ok with it. So, i let him pick me back up, and take me to my room again. I let him shut the door and lock it. I let him take off my clothes, and see what nobody except now, me and him have seen. I let him tell me it was going to hurt. And, that night, I let Alex Surlock take my virginity.
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A/N: Dont worry, it's not the end of the chapter! I just thought I should tell you all that...well I am sorry for all of you who are now going to call Ashlynn a slut. Ok, well...I really just wanted to make all of you scared that this was the end. Ok, ok! Dont kill me! Ha ha. Back to the story..
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Christian's P.O.V

    In the elevator we were alone again, and I kissed her again. She didnt seem to care about Ashlynn either. I was glad. When we were walking back to the rooms, she asked me to go inside her hotel room instead. I happily obliged. As soon as she shut the door, she kissed me, slamming her body against me. I wasn't complaining. Her hands were already in my hair, and my hands were on her waist picking her up to the bed.

    I wake up in the morning, smelling of sex. I look at my phone and see a text from Ashlynn.

From Ashlynn: Hey, when are you coming home?

From Christian: Today.

    Oh crap! I have to get on a plane in 2 hours. I look over and see...whatever her name is laying next to me...Arelia....right? She is still sleeping, so I go to take a shower. I hate smelling like sex. Sex, that's another downside to Ashlynn, she doesn't want to have sex until she is married. (A/N: She isnt married to Alex, and look what happened, she must have just not have thought Christian had a big enough...😏😏) Its annoying really. Who is her age and doesn't want to have sex? I dont care. She would probably suck in bed anyways. Whatever, hopefully I will never have to worry about Ashlynn when she goes back toschool. Maybe she will fall in love with, what's his name, oh Daniel...that would be amazing to see her choose....anyone over Alex, willingly. I get out of bed with a smirk. Alex deserves to feel that pain of how Ashlynn actually feels about him. I get in the shower letting the water drown out my thoughts, in hope that everything will work out for me.

*After shower*

Arelia is still asleep when I get out, so I grab my stuff and leave. Sure, you can call it the walk of shame, I dont care. I like to think of it as I do what I want. I go to my hotel and pack all of my stuff. I proceeded to check our of the hotel, and call an uber. I get breakfast at IHOP. I love there pancakes. I eat 3 pancakes and still want more, but I limit myself. I have a plane that's leaving soon. After I eat 3 more pancakes I get another uber and impatiently walk into the airport