Misc

Wrote Another Song

This one doesn't have a name. I can't think of a name. So. Enjoy or whatever.

I Never Know:

I never know if I'll be okay
I still get flash backs of what you did
No matter how hard I try to escape
Freedom is just out of reach
And the haunting memories won't leave
What the hell did you do to me?

Smiling like I'm fine
When they say something
And it makes me think of you
And I try to smile
When I want to frown
Cause those memories bring me down
Cause they're all of you
And you don't know what you did
Because in your mind I'm to blame
And you're the blameless victim.

I never know if I'll be okay
I still get flash backs of what you did
No matter how hard I try to escape
Freedom is just out of reach
And the haunting memories won't leave
What the hell did you do to me?

Broken by the words
You yelled at me
Used what I told you against me
Begged me to stay when I tried to leave
Made me try to forgive and trust again
And even though I could clearly see
What you did to me made me blind
To how you truly were
Too long were you a part of my life.

I never know if I'll be okay
I still get flash backs of what you did
No matter how hard I try to escape
Freedom is just out of reach
And the haunting memories won't leave
What the hell did you do to me?

Do you ever regret hurting me
Or is it just meeting me you wish you could forget
Because I hurt you apparently
And you never seem to forget
All the times I tried to run away
And you kept making me stay
But you never knew why
I was running from you in the first place.

I never know if I'll be okay
I still get flash backs of what you did
No matter how hard I try to escape
Freedom is just out of reach
And the haunting memories won't leave
What the hell did you do to me?

Did you ever really love me
Or were you just using me
I gave you love at that time
But when I couldn't because of how I am
You'd yell at me and make me think something was wrong
You made me feel like I wasn't good enough
Yet played it like I made you feel not good enough and I was the bad guy
You made me seem like the monster
And you always the victim
You guilt tripped me to stay
And you still try to bring me back
Yes, even today
But when I said no to your apology
You got angry
Once again, you insulted me
Some things never change I guess.

You'll always be the same
Slowly getting worse
Yes, you're always the same.

(End)

I swear, I could write a million songs about what that fucker did to me. Sometimes song writing and poetry is my only way if truly expressing what I feel inside.