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Continued Rant

You purposefully made me feel like I wasn't good enough so I'd finally give in and do what you wanted. You gave me attention when I did something you liked. You blamed everything on me, saying I made you feel like you weren't good enough. You insulted me with so many things. You called me cold, heartless, a monster, and a psychopath. You made me feel like shit for the way I was and for things I couldn't control. And here you come, making the same shit excuses "it's my personality" "it's the way I am" "I'm trying to change" "I have difficulty controlling my emotions" "I'm clingy"

You would say those things every single time you apologized throughout the 9 months. Did you ever change? No. In fact, you got worse. Started cheating on your girlfriends and then getting upset when they got mad at you for it. Started ignoring me for an entire day when I needed to talk to you and when I went to you for help all because of a girlfriend. You asked a question, I answered it, and you got mad at me cause I was interrupting you and your girlfriend. You treated me like shit when we dated and you treated me like shit when were friends. I never even wanted to date you in the first place. You wore me down. I told you we were just friends, but you kept on asking me and telling me you loved me. I got so sick of it so I finally said yes. Biggest mistake ever. I know everything you did was my fault. I let myself get used like that. I let it go on for so long. But I still hate you and I'm not gonna forgive you cause you come back with the same shitty and half-hearted apology you would use all the time. And whenever I told you no, you'd start insulting me and blaming me and guilt tripping me. That's why I've just completely ignored your apology this time. Yeah, I read it. But I didn't respond to it. I know that if I did, you'd just end up doing all that again after begging for forgiveness.