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You left me
Left me in the darkest corner

All alone with nothing, but my heart in ruins.

Left me with my hands hiding my face.

Because you do not want to see the pain YOU caused me.

Would you even bother to look?
Bother to take my hands away and wipe the tears rolling down my cheeks?

Or would it remind you of the first time you said you loved me when the

The sky was filled with gray and the raindrops were pouring down the windshield.

Now those raindrops are my tears.

And the thunder that once filled the sky is now my trembling voice.

Look at me break down.

Cry for you, scream at you.

Look at me weep in sorrows, shatter into thousands of pieces.

Stare at me.

But you do not. You cannot.

Because you cannot bear the fact that you hurt me.

But you knew exactly what you were doing.

You knew how much I adored you,

How I would travel oceans to get to you,

How every fucking song reminds me of you.

But instead, you left me.

You left me to crumble into dust.

You threw me into a burning pit of fire

And turned me into complete ash.

Why?

Because I gave you everything, even myself?
Because I loved you despite your flaws?

Because even when you were drowning in absolute misery,

I was the one who saved you.

You do not bother to turn back.

Why?
How could you just break someone without any regret?
How could you allow someone to lose themselves to love you?

How do you sit here and let me drown in that same ocean that you created?

You know who you are.

You know how you are.

And now I'm staring myself in the mirror

Not recognizing myself.

Wanting to break the reflection that looks back.

Just because the girl you met is not the girl that looks back at you now.

Just because now she is broken, ruined, and damaged.

Just because you cannot accept the fact that it is because of you.