You Only Live Once

Chapter 18: The tears I drop

I wake up , breathing heavily.

I see Anthony lying next to me, concerned.

"Baby, what's wrong?"

I feel the tears build up , waiting to fall like a wave.

I decide to tell him about my dream and his death.

He moves closer to me and hugs me.
Then plants kisses all over my neck.

I giggle and speak again .

"But really. It was crazy weird. I'm happy you're actually alive," I say to him .

He looks up at me and just smirks at me .

"Well , what are you thinking about?"

"I'm thinking about all the crazy shit we've been through ever since we met."

I pull him closer and get on top of him. He looks shocked. "What is this?"

I laugh . "And I actually can't believe you still want to be with me ."

He gives me a smug grin . "I mean who would want to risk their lives for such a beautiful girl?"

"Apparently, you," I respond with sarcasm.

I lay down on him, while he strokes my hair.

We have this curtain that separates the bunks , so no one sees what we're doing.

"Hey, since the guys left to grab us some food, you wanna have sex?"

I blush. I don't really like the term but I enjoy it. It's just that it's awkward to talk about.

I nod and give him a devious smirk.

"Hold on," He says.

He gets up from the bed to get something. Smut:

"Found it." He holds up a condom.

He starts to take off his boxers because that's the only thing he sleeps with on.

He puts the condom on and I begin to undress.

As I finish, I feel him staring at me.

"You're so damn sexy."

I laugh.

"You're pretty damn sexy yourself as well."

He growls at me in a sexy way.

He starts to massage my boobs , and I moan in pleasure.

Then, he stops to slip his fingers into my vagina.

"Fuck." I tangle my hands into his short, blonde hair.

After a while he takes his fingers out and positions himself to penetrate me.

He goes in and begins thrusting. I moan loudly.

"Yes, Baby. Moan for Daddy," he replies while panting.

I feel my self climaxing , and I can see he's beginning to as well.

When I climax , he's still thrusting because he's not there yet.

We finish and lay there.

After we shower, we notice that the guys aren't here yet.

"Hey, where the hell are they?" I ask Anthony with a concerned tone in my voice.

He puts his shirt over his head and turns to look at me.

"That's weird, they know we have a show today."I'm going to call John. I'll be back in a second." He walks towards the door.

He swings the door open and it closes with a thud.

That's absurd. Where could they have gone and knowing that they have a show at 4:30.

I pull out my phone to check the time. It reads 4:00pm.

*10 minutes later*

What's taking him so long? I hope the guys get back soon.

Standing in front of me , a frustrated , blonde headed beauty with tears rolling down his face.

My eyes widen . I run towards him.

"What the hell happened?!" I screech.

He shakes his head in agony.

He mutters , "I wish I would've seen the damn signs. I wish I would've seen them."

"What signs? What are you talking about?" I asked, feeling flabbergasted.

He grabs my hand. "Let's sit on the beanie bags."

We sit down and he speaks again.

"When I called John , his phone wasn't picking up. I called Chad, and when he picked up , I heard screaming in the background. I asked him about it and he said it was about John wanting to leave the band. I was so confused about it and told him to put John on the phone.
He said John didn't want to speak to anyone. He also told me that John was doing drugs again. Flea was trying to make amends, but he wouldn't give in."

I feel eyes forming tears. Why , John ? What are the guys gonna do now? I begin to sob.

"Baby, don't cry. It's fine, we'll find another guitarist. John has to get his act together."

He comes closer to hug me.

"But, it won't be the same. I saw the chemistry you guys had."

"I know but it's his choice. I can't really do anything because it's what he wants. I love him like a brother, but I can't control his decisions for him."

I nod and wipe my tears. I'll miss John a lot . I hope he can get better.

We just sit there for a few minutes until Anthony speaks again.

"Did I tell you about Hillel? How he died?"

Hm. " No, but I already know what happened. In case I didn't tell you, I was a stalker fan." I laugh.

He smirks. "Of course, but that's the way John is headed to."

"What about the concert? Are you going to cancel?"

He nods, " Yes, but until then, we'll find a new guitarist. And I'll be able to spend more time with you."

I lean in closer to his chest.

I can't believe this. What if the new guy is an asshole? John broke his promise . Shit, I miss him already.

I wonder how Flea and Chad feel about it.

All of a sudden I hear knocking. I look at Anthony who's also confused .

I get up to open the door. I unlock the door and my knees feel weak.

Wilkylam, holding a knife to my mother's neck. He gives me a smug grin and says, "If you scream, I'll slice her throat."

Well, this day just got worse.

A/N: Guys, we've reached almost 400 reads in the span of 3-4 weeks. Just incredible. Thanks for reading I appreciate it. I'm just shook with happiness.

Some recognition for : morrisonmygirl , for reading since the beginning.