Stuck In The Closet (a life story)

sike bitch #4

Highkey thought my feelings for pancakes were slowly fading away man. Like for real, having a crush on someone since 6th grade and knowing you don't stand a single chance with them is exhausting and kinda heart breaking but it's whatever.

Anyway, I thought my feelings for her were finally disappearing after like 5 years of being in love with my best friend.

But my heart is all like: LOL SIKE BITCH YOU THOUGHT

Cause today in English, all the feelings came rushing the fuck back man. We were watching this movie about Katherine Mansfield. She was a really famous NZ writer back in the day, if you don't know who she is.

So naturally, I sat next to pancakes in our school theatre to watch the movie. I wanted to take my school blazer and my jersey off because I was getting quite warm in the theatre but Pancakes was kinda shivering??? Idk man but she was cold and I'm like bitch tf?? It's like 23 degrees (Celsius) outside wyd???

And she was like to me, "Why are you taking your blazer off? Are you warm?"

And then I replied with "yeah, it's getting a bit hot, aye. What about you? Are you warm?" And she shook her head no so I like stripped my jersey from my body as fast as I could and like handed it to her. And she like smiled appreciatively at me which was so cute guys her smile is sososososso cute I would post a photo of her to show you guys just how cute she really is but that's like an invasion of privacy or something like that and i don't wanna be giving away her photo like that man. Also don't wanna have to compete with anyone cause she's like completely stunning and will bLOW you the fuck away.

But anyway, she put my jersey on and like sighed in contentment with a little smile on her face. But LMFAOOOO my jersey was so big on her like she's 5"2 so she's a smol bean it highkey looked like a dress underneath her school blazer.

So we were talking for a while because the teachers had a meeting before hand, making them a bit late to class, when one of my friends came up to me with her phone and was like "Ukulele (the drunk girl that kept flirting with me at the party) saw you on my streaks and wanted to know if it was you"

So my friend opened the Snapchat and Ukulele's snap said "omg is that her" and I took a photo with my friends phone to send to her and she replied like almost instantly and was like "HOLY SHIT ITS THE LOVE OF MY LIFE AJDKKDKD DADDY"

Pancakes beside me scoffed and rolled her eyes, my other friend beside me was laughing at Ukulele, all while I was highkey shook like woah I've only met you once before Ukulele. And Pancakes was literally like:

"Didn't you like just meet her why the fuck is she calling you the love of her life and daddy?" BITCH THE FUCK I DONT KNOW DONT ASK ME

But my friends (Kenya, if you remember her, and Kenya's best friend) that were sitting in the row in front of me turned around and Kenya was all like "cause she's a daddy, duh."

I started choking when she winked at me and all my other friends around us started laughing cause we actually have an inside joke that I'm the mother of the group, cause I look after all of their asses, but I'm also somehow the child, because I'm the youngest, and I'm also the daddy/sugar daddy cause I buy those bitches food all the damn time.

But you know that's whatever. So the movie stared and I was just chilling and enjoying the movie and whatnot and out of my peripheral vision, I saw her moving around heaps and like scooting closer to me in a way????? Idk but she was sitting to the right of me with my other best friend (let's call her necktie) sitting on the left and kinda leaned her head on my shoulder. Pancakes kept moving and like brushing her arm on my arm and her legs on my knees and stuff and you damn well know a bitch was given a heart attack with all these small touches.

So naturally, being the good friend I am, asked if she was okay, to which she replied with a no, saying that she was trying to get comfortable. I quickly turned to my left and was like to necktie, "bro go lean on Ellen" (another one of our friend's who was sitting beside her) and surprisingly, she didn't complain and actually leaned on Ellen which was good. Then I turned to pancakes and like opened my arms for her to cuddle into.

DUDE I SHIT YOU NOT it was so cute cause she like grinned and cuddled into my side, wrapping her arms around my torso while my right arm went around her shoulder. I was so worried she was able to hear my heartbeat bro like her head was on my fuckin chest, I could smell her sweet perfume and feel her skin on mine. CAN YOU IMAGINE HOW BADLY I WANTED TO JUMP IN JOY BUT ALSO SHIT MYSELF FOR BEING SO CLOSE TO HER????

Like we've been really close before but like I always get nervous every time we hug or cuddle and stuff idk man she makes me hella soft and nervous and idk what I say or do around her.

But yeah, that's the story of how every time I think I'm getting over her, she does some shit that makes me fall for her again smh I can't believe this bitch has the nerve to do this every single damn time.

Okay, see you next story time! It'll most likely be about the valentines party I'm going to this Friday with my friends (and hopefully Pancakes) sO ILL UPDATE YOU ON THAT WHEN IT HAPPENS

HOPE YOU HAVE THE BEST DAY I LOVE YOU LOADS STAY SAFE!!! LOOK AFTER YOURSELF!! Drink water, sleep well, study hard, you can do it, I believe in you ❤️❤️❤️

UPDATE: TODAY IS VALENTINES DAY AND I WAS LOWKEY FLIRTING WITH PANCAKES THE WHOLE DAY JWKXKDLWLLDF

I'll hit you with some cheeky examples:

Me: lol I wish I had money. And food. And clothes. And more money. Someone give me what I want.

Pancakes: sorry, can't help you there. We're all out of stock in my store.

Me: well damn who used up all the stock

Pancakes: me, I've used it all.

Me: well in that case... can I just have you instead?

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Pancakes: *sneezes*

Me: "I'd say bless you but it looks like you're already blessed enough"

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*us in biology class*

Teacher: *rambling on about glucose or something idk I wasn't paying attention, Pancakes and I were playing footsies under the table*

Teacher: "so what is it? What's the thing found here that's more addicting to everyone than Cocaine is to crackheads?"

*whole class is kinda silent* *teacher sighs in disappointment*

Teacher: "You nunchucks! Have a guess! It's sweet, really really sweet."

Me: *whispering underneath my breath to pancakes* is she talking about you?

Teacher: *sees me saying something and immediately calls me out* yes??!!??!?

Me: *stammering over my words because Pancakes was giggling and touching my knee with her knee* u-uhhh *nearly says Pancakes' name but stops myself quickly* sugar?

Teacher: finally! Someone in here knows the damn bloody answer.

Pancakes: *giggles beside me while I sigh in relief* not me, sugar, but nice try

Me: oh babe, you're way sweeter than sugar to me

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So yeah,,,,, that fuckin happened and like so much more but it's not as important. Anyway, im wishing you all a Happy Valentine's Day ;) hope you get to kiss your crush xxxxx love you all ❤️