Don't leave.
I bear that in my mind. I wish I could say that to him before he will leave again.
Now it's different. He really leaves.
Hopeless, he really left.
"I will come back again," He said.
I'm sure he will come back with the love of his life. Until then, what should I do?
Can I just cry my heart out?
Until my eyes turn red or maybe I'll go blind?
No, I have work. I have my own career. My patients need me.
There are lot of people suffering from depression.
Me too, atleast for now.
Yes, Jimin is important to me. But why he always comes when winter end?
"Do you really have to go?" I asked, while lowering down my gaze.
"I'm purposing to her. You should know better Doctor.Jung," He chuckled.
'Doctor'
Why can't he call me by my name? Or call me his girl?
It hurts why I still hold on to him. When all he did was getting farther away.
"Between you and me, there's no secret," His eyes smile.
"You know when I will come back. You always know better," He added.
"Don't do this," I muttered, slowly.
He look at me in disbelief. His eyes enlarge.
What should I told him?
Why are you getting farther away? So far that I can't reach you.
No, I shouldn't let him know.
"Goodbyes are more painful," I look up to him.
"I hate goodbyes,"
Again, why should I be the weak one and end up crying?
He paid me, higher than other patients did but he didn't pay for the caused of my ached heart.
I lose, my tears stream down. My eyes glance around the place except him.
He didn't wipe tears, looking at me in confusion.
"You never told me you hate it," He shook his head.
I thought he would tell me 'I won't leave'
"I wasn't before, but now I hate it. I really hate it," I covered my face.
Stop crying. Please, stop.
Jimin pulls my hands away, gently. He smiles.
"I will bring you the good news when I return soon,"
Good news that doesn't make me happy. Good news that will become my catastrophic.
Very well then, you can leave.
I gave up and nodded my head.
Again, he smiles warmly.
Yeah, I'm a fool for still falling for his smile.
Love me, Park Jimin.
