The Move (Part 1)

I'm Not Hungry, Jimin

   This chapter contains a struggle with an ED (Eating Disorder) if you're are sensitive to this it probably best you don't read.
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*1 week later*

   I woke up to Jimin's voice. He was singing in his. His voice is beautiful. I tried thinking about him and Suga but my kept going back to what happened what happened last Friday.

   This isn't the first this has happened. The same thing happened 2 years ago but I had Lacey to help me then. I don't want to bother the boys with my problems.

   I got up and walked into my bathroom. I took off my shirt and shorts. I sucked in my stomach and looked in the full body mirror.

   The casting director was right. I'm fat and disgusting. How could anyone what to cast me looking like this?

   That's how my bulimia came back. I felt worthless and fat. I believed that guy when I shouldn't have. I stopped eating for a week a refused to leave my room, all because I thought I wasn't good enough or thin enough.

   There was a knock on my door. I quickly put my clothes back on and go answer the door.

   I slowly opened the door to find Jimin standing there a plate of food.

   "You didn't come dine for breakfast again... So made you something." Jimin said with a worried smile.

   "Thanks, Jimin but I'm not hungry," I said with a smile and went to close the door.

   "WAIT!!!" Jimin said in a panic "it's been a whole week and you ate.You have to eat Chy. You have to eat. Please for me?"

   "Jimin I said I'm not hungry, please just stop," I said trying to not cry or hurt his feelings.

   "What happened last Friday when I left? What did that guy say to you, that made you this upset? Please tell me I care about you, we all do. Please?" Jimin asked as he stared into my eyes.

   I took in a deep breathe... "H--h-he said I wasn't then thin enough for the part. He was right I'm fat and ugly." I said as a tear started to cloud my vision.

   Jimin stepped inside as he closed the door and pulled me into a hug. We stood there for a moment he let go.

   "Look at me! You are fucking perfect, your body is perfect, your mind is perfect, everything about you perfect Chy... Please don't let them get to you,  you're too good for them. You're best the best thing that's every happened to all of us. You make us happy."

  "Jimin how can you say that... Look at me, I'm---" I tried to say out was cut off my Jimin's kiss.

   He kissed me with passion and pushed me on my bed. He kissed my neck and whispered, "You're perfect."

   I felt the same I did with Suga. My body was on fire and begging for more. I didn't want him to stop. I never thought this would have when I moved in.

   After a while Jimin pulled away, "Beautiful." he while tracing my jaw line with his fingers.

"You must be starving, let's go eat," he said and I followed without hesitation...

   When we got downstairs Jungkook was on Tae's lap giving him a kiss on the lips. They're adorable together. I want a relationship like that...

   As I and Jimin entered the kitchen Suga was at the table with his down. He slowly lifted it when he heard us. He looks sick like he hadn't been eating either...

   "Suga, are you?" I asked as I put my hand on his shoulder.

  He quickly stood up and hugged me tightly, "I'm so happy you're ok, I've missed you..."

   "Me what about you?" I said with a worried look as I took in how sick he looked.

   "I was just so worried about that I couldn't eat," he said with a smirk.

   "Never that ok?" I said in a serious tone.

   "Ok." he's as turned to see if Jimin was looking...He wasn't and Suga quickly kissed me...

Jimin turned around "Food's ready?" he said whilst smiling at me

   It was in that moment I realized I was in love with men...