MY STORY [COMPLETED] ✔✔

A goodbye (2)

Doktor keluar and terus pigi tempat mom si darrel.
"He's fine for now. But .." Dia tunduk and tngok sy.
" oh,unty sy tunggu d livingroom" me
Unty angguk ja.
I made my way to living room carefully.
And I see jordan dduk d ruang tamu.
"Heyy"
sy ckp lembut n pgang tngan dia. He look at me with a no expression ..
"I'm ask you to be carefull jasmine. You never listen. I have feelings too. You know, I'm done. If I have to." He stand up n kiss my temple and leave.
I still not understand ? Apa mksd dia ?
But for now I can't even thinking about what he just said. Darrel is all im think of.

2days left
I take care of darrel walaupun saya tau sy tengah sarat mengandung begini. I know im stubborn. But darrel, he just need me now.
Jordan ? I don't know where is he, he don't even call me or anything. He just leave that day. Im worried but i cant. But,
I need him to be with me everytime.

Sy dduk di sebelah darrel, dia buang muka dia di luar jendela .. Yeah i think he's counting his days.
"Hey here drink" me
Dia pandang sy and snyum.
"Hey. Thanks"
I help him drink. And dia dduk d katil.
Dia pandang sa n sentuh perut sy.
"I bet he will be a good son jasmine and ofcourse gentleman,romantic, handsome, and more like you" he said and look at me.
Yes its a boy. My son. My life.
I chuckle .
"Dont forget you is his uncle And I'm sure he will have a bit look from you. " me
He smiled.
"Well, I hope so" he throw his face at the windows.
I hold his hands.
"Its gonna be fine. You gonna be fine." Me
"I don't know. I'm ready to left this world by the way. I'm .. " he close his eyes and he burst to tears.
I hug him
"Y-you gonna fine darrel."
I kiss his head. I'm crying with him.
And  he cupped my face.
We looking at each other. Our temple met.
He breath hard
"I love you so much. I will always love you. You will always be my plus one. I- .."
I kiss his cheek.
"Don't say anything. Darrel, i love you too. You know, .."
And we heard someone closed darrel  door ..
Someone came in ..
Sy tngok darrel n dia angguk. So I go to look who is it.
Sy kluar n nmpk jordan yes jordan ..
"Uhm babe " me
He turn to look at me.
Tida teratur ni sy nmpk dia.
And he smell alcohol
His eyes look puffy..
"Where r u have been ?! You smell alcohol. The fuck are you going ? You know im worried !" Me
He look at me, i know that look he is angry. But now even angrier.
Jordan tumbuk tu cermin besar di dinding. 
There's blood. All over his hand -

"What the - are u crazy ?! You hurt !" Me
I make a way to him. He Stop me.
" im okay yeah im okay, oh god I don't feel anything. But when I look at you damnn its so hurt like hell !! Ahhh ! Goddamnit !"
He said loud. He is crying now.
What have I done ? I burst to cry n still want to touch him. I love my angels . So much. Its hurt to look at him like this
sy rasa ada air keluar d celah paha saya.
Jordan look at me shocked.
"Hospital" me
"No, you stay at your room I call the doctor .. Let me help you" jordan angkat sy p bilik and run to call Doctor.
Fuck its hurt. Hurt macam mau,entahh Tuhan ja tau.

Sy pun ndataula siapa yg p kasi bersih tuh kaca . banyak gila.

Doctor dtg n checking me.
"Okay mummy be strong and follow my instruction oky "
I nod my head.

Let's feel the pain  -

Jordan's POV

Yea I know I'm not the first guy who touched her who is her first love or anything..

She's my life, my only one,my everything ..

But the taste of love she given me is hurt. Half and im feelings unwanted -
She give me love and care and after that she changed and so on.
Its like im the only one who always wanted her and keep coming back to her, but now i hear it with my own ears.
She love someone. But it's unfair !
How could she ?!
She had my baby there n capable to love someone other than the father of her child.
I'm hurt so hurt.
Why she can't even look at me.
I'm broken
Is this a sign to leave her ? Let her go ?
But ..
I still cant.