Broken Hearts / Shawn Mendes

Chapter 29: Lost

Lauren's POV:

Today, we have a day off, which is pretty great which means I don't get to see anyone today; I'm still trying to recover from what happened yesterday, and I don't know if I wanna see anyone today, but a part of me wants to see Cameron; he kept supporting during all of this

I heard a knock on my door, I lazily got up and looked at the peep hole to see the last person I wanna see right now

"What do you want, Shawn?" I said harshly, although I did feel a bit bad but it didn't matter

"Lauren, I need to talk to you about all of this, I swear that kiss meant nothing" he said, with a little bit of sadness in his tone while talking

"Shawn, I don't care, you kissed her in high school and now you kissed her in front of all of your fans, I don't care what you want to say, we're done" I said, tearing up a bit

"Please, don't say that" Shawn replied, crying, which makes me want to cry "how am I supposed to live without you in my life, without waking up to your beautiful face, without seeing your smile, without hearing your contagious laughter, without feeling your lips on my lips, how am I supposed to live without your sight everyday?" he continued, balling his eyes at that point

"Shawn" I started, "a part of me just wants to hold you, and hug you, and kiss you until you  suffocate" I said which made both of us chuckle "but that won't mean anything to me, because in my head I will always, and forever will be, looking at you differently, which is the young man who was my first love, then broke my heart into a million pieces, I can't look at you the same" I said, he just stayed there, sobbing his eyes and heart out

"Sometimes I may even think that all of this is my fault, that I wasn't good enough for you, that I don't treat you right" I continued, "Shawn, you need someone who can grant the wishes that you wanted for a long time, ever since high school" I said

"No, no Lauren, I don't need that, I don't want it, I need you and only you, and I'll wait for you, I swear, and this is all my fault, I promise you that none of this is your fault" he said

"I'm sorry, Shawn, but I think you should go" I replied, then went back to laying on my bed, only thinking about Shawn and how much pain I felt hearing him cry that much

Shawn's POV:

I can't believe I lost the love of my life, I can't believe that I caused pain not only to myself, but to her, and now I'm known as the cheater, no one at MAGCON is going to look at me the same, no fan is going to see me the same, no one at all is going to look at me the same

Cameron's POV:

I heard the entire conversation going on, I decided on going straight to Lauren once Shawn leaves, and he left pretty soon, I walked up to the door and knocked

"I said go away, Shawn!" I heard Lauren while she's crying 

"It's actually Cameron" I replied

Lauren's POV:

I immediately bolted to the door and attacked Cameron in a hug, I really missed hugging him even though I hugged him yesterday, but I've been wanting a hug for a while, especially from Cameron

"Come in" I said after I broke the hug, we sat down on my bed and started talking about how's it going on with the breakup

"So, what's gonna happen to you?" asked Cameron

"Well, it looks like I'm gonna have to still live at the house, and return the house key to Shawn's mom or his sister, since I can't deal with another lecture on how much he loves me" I said then we both chuckled "I'm gonna have to work back at the diner still, make sure that I have enough money for myself" I continued, then looking at Cameron, which showed sympathy and yet sadness in his eyes

"Hey, you don't have to be said for me, I'll be okay, I promise" I said as I took his hand and made a circular movement at the top of his hand using my thumb

"It's not that, it's just that... you'd do anything for yourself to have a good life to the point where you wouldn't even think of college, that's amazing and kind of you, Lauren, I can't believe Shawn wouldn't see how incredible, spontaneous, gorgeous, and just how..." he then looked at me in the eyes and just stared at them, while I did the same

As I'm looking into him, all the pain, sorrow, depression and sadness that I've felt during the past 24 hours relating to Shawn just flew out of my heart, and just looking into Cam's eyes enters in happiness, warmth and safety into my heart and soul

"Perfect you really are" he continued his sentence, making me blush and him smile, which also made me have butterflies in my stomach

We just sat there, in silence, admiring each other, until he cleared his throat

"Well, I'm gonna go, if you want anything or help or something in between the lines, just uh, call or knock or something like that" he said with a lot of hand movement making me laugh, and him chuckle

"Thanks, Cam, for everything you have done so far, I seriously appreciate it" I said making him smile

"Anytime, Lauren, I'll see you soon" he replied, which I nod afterwards, he then left the room, leaving me with butterflies in my stomach

A/N: Hope u guys enjoyed this chapter, I promise I'll post as regularly as possible, leave comments on chapter/story ideas I can use! It can be about a celebrity or fictional characters, literally anything at all!

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