Melancholy

•Eighteen•

Every night I slept with
a lots of unspoken words
inside my mind and that's
the reason why I always feel
the pain inside in my heart.

Look upon with the
starry night.
A lots of midnight thoughts
came from my mind.
But it's only you that I
imagined my future with.
And then reality slap me again.

Reality and my insecurities
will be my forever mortal enemies.
In every night that I think of you
There's a lot of 'what if's' inside my head like,
What if he also thinking someone  and that's not me.
What if he is happy now in someone, while me here always
hoping for he's love.

But despite of that 'what if's'
I will not give you up,love
Even if it's hurt a lot I will
endure it.
I will shower you with my
unending love.
I will always here to support you
even your happiness is a pain
for me.