Melancholy

•Twenty Three•

That night when all of my insecurities is killing me.
That night when I hate myself so much for being me.
That night when all I want to do is to cry and to scream the pain inside me, but I'm afraid
That night when I'm so tired of everything.

And that was the night when I saw a door infront of me
I saw myself opening the door
It was magical inside, everything is so magical that this place is full of happiness.
While looking around and cherishing the moment of this place
In just a snap everything is back on it's own, the pain inside me is back
I thought that in this magical place I will never feel the sadness inside me but no, I was wrong even in this magical place I can't be happy

And then I saw you, standing infront of me with a genuine smile
I don't know why but when I saw you my heart lightens.

You comfort me, you listen to all of my problems
You allowed me to cry on your shoulder
You allowed me to show you the weakest side of me
It such a relief to share my problems to the man that I loved.

As I opened my eyes, I'm here in my own room not in that place.
But I know that it was not a dream, all of that is real.
I didn't feel anymore the pain inside me, I know that's real,
that you came to comfort me.
Even though it was dream or not I will always be thankful for saving me love.
Then I remeber before I open my eyes you whisper to me
"just trust this place, trust magic shop"

I allowed you to see the worst side of me cause love,
I trusted you.