ALONE

My Words

Good for nothing
That's who I am,

I never believed it when she told me,
Thinking I was worth something,
something great
But boy was I wrong,

I should have believed her,
I'm nothing,
I'm useless,
I'll never be worth anything,

And now I know it
I'm not good at anything 
I'll never be
I'm not worth it,

Death
Is all I think about,
But it never comes
All it does is mock me,

I don't deserve life,
I don't deserve anything,
But death,
Not even if I could turn the clock of time,

Fate
A word tended to be misused,
But I know what mine is
it's to suffer and always be me,

Broken and cold
All my strings are broken leaving a hollow void in it's place,
I'm just a sad and broken soul
Roaming with no safe haven to return to,

Trust
Is something I once did
And it's the one thing that broke me,
Left me hopeless and depressed,

I know this isn't what you expect of me,
But do we ever meet expectations?
You thought of me as good, but she knew,
You claimed I was unique and special

But did you ever believe it?
Or were you just playing me?
The answer lies within you
And I'll never know it,

Because I'll take my own life,
I'll commit suicide
And maybe just maybe you'll be free from my presence
I'll do it for my own peace,

You'll never see me again
For I know I wasn't anything to anyone
But him
He showed me love but I couldn't return it,

I'm a horrible human being 
And I should be punished for it,
I'll save everyone and just die
Because I can't take it anymore,

Failure,
Badluck,
Possessed 
Cold,
Useless,
Worthless,
Ungrateful,

All these are words I've been called,
I know it's true and they are right
I believe them,
So it's wise I do it,

Suicide thoughts lurk in my mind,
Don't cry the day you hear I'm gone,
Because I know you never cared,
I was nothing and I'll always be,

I'll lay there on the hospital bed,
Walls coated in white paint,
I'll lay there lifeless,
And I'll never come back,

You'll cry
Asking me to come back to you
But I'll never come back,

Don't pretend to care once I'm gone,
Because you never did when i was alive
Never was I loved or cared for,
But I was always the one to be broken,

I got depressed
Though you never knew,
And I wish it were like that
But I know someday you'll find out,

You'll ask why?
But I won't be there to answer you
For I shall be burried six feet under
Finally finding my peace.

These are my last words........

Some of what is written isn't exactly true or what I want to say but you'll get the picture.

What are and/ your last words? Tell me or just figure out what they would be.