𝐀𝐃𝐃𝐈𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 / 𝐩𝐣𝐦 + 𝐦𝐲𝐠

FUN

||C H A P T E R 13

warning- self harm in this chapter

~Yoongi~

Shit is the first thing i thought when i heard a soft high pitched voice say my name, i knew instantly that it was Jimin

"What are you doing" he said tme

"Um, i'm just looking at the sky" i mentally slapped myself, why the fuck would i be looking at the sky? Especially with one foot out the window

"What are you really doing" Jimin said, emphasizing the really

"Fine" i give in "I'm going to a party"

"No your not" Jimin said sternly

"I am and you cant stop me" i snapped, no one tells me what to do

"You realize my mom and dad are right across the hall, right?"

Fuck, he's got a point

"Fine" i sigh "Please don't tell your parents, i'll do anything you wan't"

"Anything?" he asked

"Yes, anything" i said in annoyance

"Ok" he agreed "Go to your party, but be back before 3:00" he said in a cute but demanding voice

"Thank you" i said, and with that i was out the window

~Jimin~

"Please don't tell your parents, i'll do anything you wan't" he said

Hold up, anything? Holy shit

"Anything" i asked, making sure

"Yes, anything" he said sounding annoyed

"Ok" i finally said "Go to your party, but be back before 3:00" i said, trying (and failing) to sound demanding

"Thank you" was all he said before he left

I don't know how or why i let him go, something came up over me and something was telling me i could't say no, plus, he has to grant me a wish...

...this will be fun

~Yoongi~

I arrive at the destination i was given to at school, it was HUGE, i mean the music was loud as shit and there were about 400 people there

I walk in the party and i'm instantly hit with the smell of drugs and alcohol, the smell is a relieving smell to me, like i have nothing to worry about

I walk past people who are drunk and people who are high, and some both. All of them either dancing or at least making out

This party was actually pretty cool, there were diffrent colored lights everywhere while smoke filled the air, making it a little foggy, but still enjoyable

I get to the kitchen, picking up and whole bottle of vodka instead of just a cup, people looking at me as if i'm crazy

"Hey Yoongi!" i hear someone yell

I turn around and see Jackson

"How are ya" he says

"Good, this party this amazing so far" i reply, looking around the room once more

"Wanna go some where private, there's a basement down stairs and my friends along with yours are down there"

I nod, taking a big gulp of the burning liquid i had in my hand before following him

I go down stairs to see everyone either on the floor or on the couches, all of them either smoking or drinking

Then there's Hobi and Jennie eating each others faces off

10 minutes later me and my 'friends' are high asf

We keep talking about some boring shit while Jennie and Hoseok went back upstairs to "talk"

"So" Jackson started "Do you like anyone" he blankly ask, trying to start a conversation

"Not really, i mean i guess there's some people i'm into" i said smirking

Wait...what?

"Really, whats your type" he ask's, taking a big gulp of his drink again

And my dumbass, high as fuck mind decided to say this

"Someone with brown hair and brown eye's. Along with plump lips and tan skin, they need to be short and small, delicate almost. When i comes to body i don't really care, but if i had to choose, it would be someone on the thicker side, thick thighs and small waist...." i trail off, realizing that i was blabbering to Jackson

He stared at me wide eyed

"Why does that image sound so familiar" he whispers

I shrug and drink again, not caring about what he had to say next

"Im so fucked" i whisper to myself

~Jimin~

I was in the bathroom silently crying, i couldn't get to sleep, i was awake thinking about something

It was about today, and what Jackson said to me, am i really that fat?

"Thanks fatty"

"Your to big"

"Your such a pig"

I look down at my naked thighs, grabbing ahold of them as my eyes slowly wondered to my stomach

"Aren't you fat enough?"

"Why can't you just die already

With ever word a feel a panic attack starting, shit

My chest started to thump loudly, my hands trembling as my vision got blury

I grab the sharpest thing i can find and bring it up to my wrist, swiftly yet carefully sliding it across my damaged skin

One cut

Two cut

Three cut

And forth cut

I see some blood slowly going down my wrist and i feel nothing, iv'e done this so many times i'm completely numb

Pathetic right?

I grab the first aid kit, finding whatever there was to stop the bleeding

I walk out of of the bathroom with bandages around my arms, trying not to make any noise

I get to my room and get under the blankets and i feel all warm again, tomorrow is another day...

...Another day of hell

~Yoongi~

"See ya" i yelled to everyone

"Bye Yoongi" Hoseok yelled at me

I just laugh to myself as i see Hoseok jumping up and down like an idiot

Namjoon would love this

I try sobbering up a little, slapping my self here and there, shaking myself as well

I get back to the Parks house, all their lights turned off

I spot the vine and climb up the window, looking in to see a cute sleeping Jimin

I'm still a little drunk and a little high, so i decided to just call it a night

I climb into bed, not even bothering to change, the smell of partying still on me