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The only reason I did a double update is because the next chapter deadass has 331 words. Don't hate meh ⚠️ not edited ⚠️
~Jimin~
"I have to go to the bathroom" I say standing up
"Ok" both Yoongi and Jihyun
I walked up my stairs and turn into the bathroom closing the door behind me
I sit on the closed toilet seat, i didn't really need to go to the bathroom
I lift my sleeve up and look at all my faded scars, memories of words and pain come back, but last night hurt the most
I take a blade from under the cabints and sit back down, slowly taking the blade and dragging it across my skin
It hurts, it hurts so much. But it's amazing, it's the perfect contrast between heaven and hell. It hurts me yet makes me feel so alive. It's the stinging and makes me feel something in ways that can't be expressed. How the darkest thing can make up the happiest
It's how the blade runs across me, how I go numb on the feeling of being alive
But as I'm dragging it across my skin, my mind drifts of the one things that makes me feel even better then a sharp blade....
Yoongi
I stop cutting and drop the blade, eyes widening at what I'm doing, what I'm saying to myself
If Yoongi were ever to find out, he would hurt way more then me, he would hurt so much more
And that hurt me
I panic, grabbing the medical kit from under the cabinet, taking out some familiar things I have used before
After gently wrapping my arm up, I look in the mirror and see that i'm crying, how the hell did i not notice?
I put everything always, only to sit back down on the floor, bringing my knees to my face and taking a deep breath
Yoongi would hate me if he found me if he found out
It would be so cruel, just imagining him yelling at me for doing something so stupid, just seeing him cry and hurt all because of me. I don't want to hurt him, but I can't stop
Addictions like this kill so many people, addiction to love and to hurt, addiction to feeling amazing, to feeling alive. My addiction to hurting myself, unknowingly hurting others
