hotline | meanie

FORTY-SIX

MINGYU
April 4th, 2018 6:55pm

WONWOO
dear mingyu, if you're reading this it means I did it. it also means my brother did what I asked him and sent all my messages to the people I love and yes that includes you. I asked him to do this if I ever successfully killed myself. I'm sorry gyu but I just couldn't take it anymore. the bullying really got bad. school is supposed to be a safe place yet I ended up coming home with bruises everyday. I tried to stand up to them but there were just too many. I tried to get rid of the problem by asking to be homeschooled but my mom and dad didn't have time for that. I remember the first time I spoke to you. you made me feel safe for the first time in a long time. I've known ever since middle school that I was different and people saw that different as disgusting and ugly. you saw me for me and I love you for that. as we kept talking and talking, I've been trying to deal with it. I tried to ignore it but they just kept coming back. you were my only escape but it wasn't enough to set me free

WONWOO
I don't know why they chose to pick on me, but I do know it broke me down. it got to a point where every night I ended up with bloody stains on my sleeves. I felt trapped in my own life. I tried every way possible to get away from the hell but nothing worked. therapist after therapist. I told the teachers, but they ignored me. my parents didn't have enough time to notice my mood and when they did, they treated me like I was a ticking bomb. I can't argue with that though. I couldn't take it anymore gyu. I was weak. I couldn't handle it and I broke. i know you get really emotional. it's not your fault there's nothing you could have done to stop it. don't hate yourself because you're the reason I lasted as long as I did. you were my miracle gyu. you gave me a chance to love before I left the world, you let me know that not all people are bad. I really did love you and I'm sorry I was a lost cause. mingyu I loved you and I still do even as I cease to exist. I just have one request. don't break like I did alright? take care of yourself and whoever comes to you next on that hotline.
forever yours, wonu

WONWOO
it's wonwoo's brother. we never really got a chance to meet but I'm Jeon Bohyuk

WONWOO
thank you for taking care of my big brother

WONWOO
the service is next week I think he would want you there so please come

MINGYU
what the actual fuck no wonu no NONnOnONINOnONO
text failed to send

MINGYU
this seriously can't be happening
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MINGYU
you have to be fucking kidding me This is a prank right? hidden camera right? please
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MINGYU
NononoNONKNKnONONoNoNOnONO NO
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MINGYU
he's really gone.

MINGYU
I really can't believe this.

MINGYU
I'll come.

WONWOO
he wanted you to have some of his things too

WONWOO
you can come pick them up

MINGYU
yeah.

MINGYU
I can't go in that room and see all his things and not cry I can't go in that room to see it empty wonu you can't be gone
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MINGYU
that would be nice

MINGYU
I'm sorry for your loss

WONWOO
I'm sorry for yours too

MINGYU
you have to be feeling it worse than i do

MINGYU
he was your brother

MINGYU
my heart aches so much I want to stab it just for it to stop hurting so I can just process this
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WONWOO
I still can't believe it but I think I'm still in shock

MINGYU
i wish i could see him one last time

WONWOO
I do too
seen by MINGYU at 7:18pm