Emotions | Book 3 to 'Lil Marais'

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S K Y L A R

"That's my baby" I scream

A women dressed in all black, with her face walks away with Toby in her arms. I walk towards her, "That's my baby!" I scream

She's on the edge of the cliff, "Please give me my sweet little boy back" I beg

She laughs, "He's not your baby"

She throws Toby up in the air, i look up and he's turned into ashes. I look around crying for the women in black

"Where's my baby?" I scream

She clicks her fingers and i look in her direction, "This baby?" She asks

She shows me Toby, i feel my heart skip a beat, seeing his sweet face. The next thing i know she runs off the cliff

"No!" I scream

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"No!" I scream

I jump up and i wipe the sweat off my forehead. The tears come and they don't stop, i begin to have a panic attack

Ryan runs into the room, "What's wrong" He asks

I try to calm myself down, i breath in and out s few times. Ryan realises that i'm having a panic attack and he sits next to me

"Calm down" He says

I nod my head, "It was all a dream, everything is okay" He tells me

I finally calm down, "I'm sorry" I tell him, "Zach is normally here to calm me down" I sob

"It's okay, lay down" He tells me

I nod my head, I lay back down, Ryan lays next to me, "When does it end?" I ask

"When does what end?" He asks

"All the pain, it's like it's one thing after another" I tell him

"Sky, I need to know, what did you mean by getting physically hurt by Zach?" He asks

I shake my head, "It's nothing" I tell him

"It is something because when you came downstairs you were holding your head Sky, you haven't stopped complaining about a headache since you came downstairs" He tells me

"You can't tell anyone" I beg

"I won't" He promises

I sign, "I said something that made him extremely angry, i shouldn't have said it. Next thing i know he's grabbed my cheeks with one hand, and pulling my hair back with the other hand, and then he pushed me onto the floor but i hit my head pretty hard on the bedside table" I explain

"Why didn't you tell anyone?" He asks

I shake my head, "You're all his family, i could never turn you guys against him, he needs you, now more than ever" I tell him

"Everything will be okay in the end" He reassures me

I lean my head on his shoulder, i end up drifting off and i think Ryan did too.

Z A C H

I walk upstairs heading for the bedroom that i used to call mine, i open the door. I'm shocked at what i see

I slam the door shut, "Hello!" I scream

Ryan and Sky jump up, i raise my eyebrow at them, "It's not what it looks like" Ryan tells me

I scoff, "So it's not you cuddling my wife?" I ask

"Zach-"

I point at her, "Don't you dare give me some shit excuse" I cut Sky off

"She had a nightmare, some lady took Toby and ran off a cliff with him. Have some sympathy" Ryan tells me

"That doesn't give you the right to cuddle my wife" I scream at him

"She was screaming the house down, and having a panic attack what was i supposed to do?" He asks

"Don't talking about me as if i'm not here" Sky tells us

She walks out of the room, "Start acting like a man, before Wesley grows up to be a women beater too" He scoffs

My eyes go wide, "I didn't mean it" I mumble

"What happened to you? When i was younger i looked up to you, i thought you were an amazing person and i wanted to be just like you, but if this is really you now i'm ashamed to even be related to you" He tells me

I look at the floor ashamed of the man i've become, "I'm sorry"

"Don't you dare try and get Sky back unless you're ready to be a man, you've put her through hell and back, and she's still willing to be yours" He tells me

"I know" I mumble

"She told your kids that their baby brother has just died on her own. She was grieving, and depressed but she still managed to put breakfast, lunch and dinner in front of your kids, maybe with some help from us but she did it. Not one night did she not put the kids to bed without reading them a story and giving them a goodnight kiss. You missed all of that because you needed to grieve too, i get it you just lost a baby, but think for one minute how Sky had to keep your family from falling apart on her own, without the man who promised to always be there for her" He explains

I walk out of the room, downstairs and out of the house. I walk out of the gates and lock them behind me

I look back at the house

That i no longer call home

I'm done

I'm no longer going to be the one that breaks Sky's heart 24/7.