~sadness throughout~

its reality.

i give you all of my love and affection.
i bend over backwards to care for you.
i skip being with my family to be with you.
i try my hardest to love and care for you.
but all i get in return is a "yeah i love you too" and a brush away.
it all happened when i thought you and your boyfriend would make a cute couple, but now it's completely destroyed me.
i'm jealous of him for being close to you.
i'm jealous of him for getting all the answers.
i ask you what's wrong, i get a nothing and you ignore me.
he asks what's wrong and he gets an entire paragraph on what's wrong.
how the hell do you think that makes me feel?
for months i was there when you were depressed.
all the times you had terrible anxiety i was there.
all the times you said you wanted to die i was there.
he's been in your life for barely a month, and suddenly you're co dependent on each other.
you tell him everything while tell me nothing.
people ask me what's wrong with you and i used to be able to say what was wrong. now i have to shrug my shoulders. and i ask and you walk away.
i can never make you happy.
no matter how hard i try.
i'll always be the worst part of you.
i can't stand that thought.
but it's not even a thought anymore.
it's reality.