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Stress/Anxiety

Right now, I'm stressing out a lot.

School is in 2 days and I'm nervous because I know I will get my test results back. You're probably wondering, "Why am I stressing out over stupid test results? I bet you did great"
Well. No. I know for a fact I failed each one I did.

On the last week of school, I had 5 tests. HASS (Humanities and social sciences), Math, science, English and digital technology.

The only one I'm confident in is my math. Now personally I'm really shit at math, so I'm trying to improve that. I'm not really trying, it's just I understand it a lot better.

HASS is a small dirty place. Since I'm in 8.2 (the 8 means what grade I'm in, and the 2 is how smart you are basically. I'm in the second highest class for HASS i don't even know why but okay. And 8.1 is extension) anyways. I know I did bad on that test.

Now digital technology. I didn't study at all so I did bad. The teacher puts a lot of expectations in me because she had my older brother for digital technology. And she said if our class gets less than the class average, she will email parents.

Science. Oh my god where do I start. I failed that test so bad. I didn't study because I'm someone that gets distracted by small stuff. I also sat next to a boy that liked to talk to another boy I front of me, about gay porn, porn and roblox. They are pretty popular guys so I don't know why they talked about it. Anyways while they talk I'm just sitting there trying to do my work. For that class I'm also in 8.2. So it puts a lot of stress on me to have higher work than the classes below me.
I. Failed. That. Test. So. Bad. I only answered 5 questions out of the whole test with 27 questions.

I honestly don't know what to do. I have anxiety about he BTS comeback too! I'm hoping they come to Australia. They haven't put any places down from last night twitter post, but I hope when the other release dates come out, the places would be somewhere in Australia. Iv been saving up for 2 years now. Iv saved all my birthday money and some other money I saved from other special holidays.

I'm trying to get all of  the thoughts about school and other stuff from my mind,  it I'm just getting negative thoughts about myself. I'm feeling so negative about myself, I just can't eat. It makes me sick.

I just needed to ramble that out. Thank you if you are reading this. No one really listens to me because I'm someone who is really shy about this stuff.

Lots of love ❤️