Dear Max,
I can't help but wonder, what would have been my life if only I was not born as JESSICA FALCON? Maybe I would be the happiest girl alive. Maybe I'll have true friends. Max, I already knew that my friends aren't really my friends pero, iba parin talaga pag nang galling mismo sa bibig nila no?.....
JESSICA'S SCENE IN THE DIARY
Mag isa ako ngayong nag lalakad sa hallway ng school dahil wala si Julia ngayon, nasa Canada siya cause she's visiting her family sa father side niya
"Hi Ms. Jessica"
"Hi, Jess"
"HI Idol!"
BInati ko rin isa isa ang mga bumabati sakin sa hallway
"Jess!" nagulat nalang ako nang biglang mag pumulupot na kamay sa mga braso ko
"Megan! HI" si Megan lang pala, isa sa mga "FRIENDS" ko
"Hindi parin ba nakakabalik si Julia?"tanong niya habang naglalakad pa kami
"Oo eh, baka mga sa susunod na araw pa ang balik non" I smiled at her
Max, I knew she was one of my Fake Friends. Yung tipo na kaibigan na kaya ka kinakaibigan kasi alam nilang they'll benefit from you. Since the limelight is mine, they'll stick to me so they could steal it. They would every benefit they could get from me, at kapag na ubos na? maglalaho nalang sila na parang bula. Yes, I knew all along but hearing it straight from their mouth? IT HURTS...
JESSICA'S SCENE IN THE DIARY
Nandito kami ngayon sa canteen. Kasama ko sina Megan and other friends. To be honest? I'm not comfortable with them, kung pwede ko lang silang sabihan ng AYAW KO KAYONG KASAMA matagal ko nnag ginawa but then again, I don't wanna be rude
"Jess, naka gawa ka naba ng assignment para sa Calculus?" mukhang alam ko na kung saan to patungo
"Yung assignment na binigay last week? Yup, last week ko lang din yun nagawa. Why?" Still asking why Jessica? Kahit alam monaman kung bakit tsk
"Ahm, can we copy? We don't understand it kasi" Hindi maintindihan or Hindi ginawa? I wanted to tell them that but of course. I CAN"T. Why? Simply because it would ruin my image. No, I'm not one of those people na plastic just because they want to maintain popularity. I can't let my image and popularity be ruined because it would affect my Parents pride. They would disown me if it would happen and I'm not even exaggerating.
"Ah, ok no worries. Kukuin ko lang muna sa classroom andon kasi yung bag ko. I'll be back 😊" They said their thanks at pumunta na ako sa classroom to get my things
Malapit na ako sa canteen nang bigla akong nakaramdam nang pag kaihi kaya imbes na dumeritso sa canteen ay sa C.R muna ako
I peed and was about to go out nang makarinig ako nang boses sa labas, I was about to discard it from my thoughts nang madinig ko ang pangalan ko
"See? She's very useful" sabi ng isang girly voice sa labas, If I'm not mistaken I'ts Megan
"Who? Jessica? Of course she is. Aside sa we need her for fame, nagagamit din natin siya for academic purposes" I know
"ahahahah I know right? Buti nalang she's so dumb. Hindi niya pansin na we don't actually like her" I knew but I kept quiet
"True! Kung pwede ko lang talaga kunan ang mga moments na akala niya we're her friends! O my goshhh she look so Pathetic! Hahaha" Maybe I am
"Let's go girls, makikipag plastikan patyo doon" hinintay ko munang maka alis na sila at sumara yung pinto bago ako lumabas sa cubicle ko
I looked at my face in the mirror and wiped my tears goodbye
"Smile, It will eventually irk them" the best phrase to calm my self
See Max? People thought I'm lucky cause I have a lot of friends pero kung alam lang nila, I don't have friends. I can't even categorize them as my friends. Mas gugustuhin ko pa na isa lang ang kaibigan ko knowing she will be the best friend I'll ever have kaysa naman maraming kaibigan pero sa panahong walang wala ka mabilisan lang din silang mawawala. Sorry for being dramatic haahah
Love, Jessica
Damn! At some point we're the same. Yes, may mga "kaibigan" ako na alam ko namang iba ang habol nila but, I know I also have A lot of friends na masasabi kong pang forever na. EWWW ang bading!
I don't want to feel pity for her cause I know she don't want that. Kahit hindi ko siya kilala alam kong ayaw rin niyang kaawaan siya ng ibang tao
With that thought in my head ay mabilisan kongtiningnan ang susunod na entry niya sa diary
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Dear Max
عشوائيDear Max, Bear with me as I tell how imperfect my life is. Bear with me as you witness how my story is going to unfold, through the ink of my pen and the paper of your pages.
