Naka upo lang ako ngayon sa Sacred place ko, sa park.
I was sipping in my beer when my stupid brain decided to reminisce the happenings I tried to forgot
I woke up when I heard cries and screams
"Paano ka nagkamali?!?! That's not Zack for fuck sake!" Mom?
"I'm so sorry maam, noong nag tanong kasi ako kanina kung sino si Zack, siya yung tinuro ni Zack" the Doctor perhaps?
"Zack huhuhuh" minulat ko ang mata ko at Nakita kung buhay pa ako
What? Wait- Ibig sabihin, THAT STUPID ZACK!
Pinagpalit niya kami nang pangalan!
I saw how my mom grieve for my brother, kung ako kaya yun? Iiyak ba siya nang ganyan?
"Fuck them all"
Nakauwi na ako sa bahay at dumiretso lang ako sa kwarto, just like always, I opened the diary and read it.
Dear Max, I found something horrible,
JESSICA'S SCENE IN THE DIARY
"Jess? Pakilagay naman to sa w ng daddy mo oh, pinapabigay nong attorney daw yun" at binigay na nga saakin ni manang ang mga papeles ni Dad
"Ok po manang, wala naman po sila eh" agad akong nag puntasa work room ni daddy
I filed the papers para hindi na maguluhan pa si Dad, papa alis na sana ako nang may masagi akong mga papel
"Hala, patay ako kay dad nito" pinulot ko ang mga papel when a certain folder catched my attention
MICHELE'S REPORTS
Mom's Reports? Baka sa shipping company to?
"Wala naman sigurong masama kung tingnan ko diba?" unti unti kong tinignan ang laman nang folder
MICHELE FALCON MEDICAL REPORTS
M-medical reports?? May sakit si Mommy?
TRAUMATIZED.MENTALLY ILL
Those words are enough para malaman ko kung ano ang nagyayari
My mom is mentally ill, kaya ba nasabi ni Julia na baliw si mama? It's not a joke kundi too iyon
I closed my eyes to stop the tears from flowing. Inayos ko muna ang mga gamit ni daddy bago ako tuluyang bumalik sa kwarto ko
Hindi ko alam kung ilang oras akong umiyak
Kaya pala, maybe that's the reason why dad keeps on choosing mom side kasi she is not stable
She was traumatized by my sisters sudden death kaya naman na apektuhan pati ang pag iisip niya.
Max, help
Love, Jessica
What the hell???? Ibig sabihin kaya ganoon yung Mommy niya kasi may sakit ito sa utak?
I was about to flip the page when I heard aknock
VOCÊ ESTÁ LENDO
Dear Max
DiversosDear Max, Bear with me as I tell how imperfect my life is. Bear with me as you witness how my story is going to unfold, through the ink of my pen and the paper of your pages.