Tom Holland/Peter Parker Imagines

defeat [p.p.] blurb

Request: I wanna request a blurb! where Peter after IW starts to build up walls and cuts off the reader. Treats her like shit for no reason, so she leaves because the relationship isn't healthy like it used to be. Love you💞 -anon

A/N: thanks so much for requesting and reading babe!! Love you too 😌💕 this is a bit of a long blurb bc i love words too much oops !! and don't worry, there are no infinity war spoilers in here ☺️

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"Why the fuck would I want to know that?" Peter snapped. His gaze threw daggers at your flinching form before looking back down at his phone.

"Oh," your voice fell. You just told him about something you found interesting, but his sudden aggression switched the light off that you had in your eyes. "I don't- Uhm-"

"Just drop it, Y/N. Oh my God."

You sniffled, looking down at your clammy hands that fiddled together in your lap. "I-I'm sorr-"

"I said drop it. Jesus Christ." His eyes never left the screen on his phone.

You were about to apologize again, but thought better of it and instead nodded silently to yourself.

Peter's sudden outburts became a routine at this point. You tried to be understanding, knowing what he did as Spider-Man was no easy feat. He helped save the world. All of it. Of course he would be a bit snappy, right?

Although, months after his return from defeating Thanos, you noticed his rough demeanor never changed back to how it was before. You tried thinking of the last time he was genuine with you, the last time Peter was Peter. You never could pinpoint when, unless you counted before everything happened.

You knew it took such a huge toll on your boyfriend, but you didn't realize until later on how your boyfriend took a huge toll on you. You couldn't remember the last time you were comfortable with him, unafraid of his voice, his gaze, him. You were constantly walking on tightrope, scared to be with him but even more scared to lose him.

That is, until one day, you realized you lost yourself while trying to find him.

"Honestly, Y/N," Peter said. You noticed how his voice was always so accusing, yet you had gotten used to bracing yourself for whatever unrelenting words left his mouth. "Do you ever shut up? Do you realize how stupid you sound sometimes? Like, I actually consider buying you a plant to carry around for all the oxygen you fucking waste."

You froze. You looked off to the distance with eyebrows raised as if you were in The Office and there was a camera filming your reaction. You wished you could tell the invisible audience, "Are you serious?"

Turning your head back to face your boyfriend, you smiled and slapped your hands on your knees. "Yaknow what, Peter?" You reciprocated the venom that constantly seeped from his pores.

You thought about it for sometime, but this was the last straw. After defeating Thanos, Peter made you feel like absolute trash and expected you to take it and stay with him. And when you tried to confront him about it? If he didn't immediately tell you to shut up, he defended himself by saying it was just his way to cope and show that he was scared of losing you, the love of his life.

Bullshit.

Peter looked at you, impatiently waiting for you to continue. You did.

"You're right."

His eyebrows raised with surprise, but you meant it. You were wasting your breath whenever you even whispered near him, knowing it would never reach him. Now, you realized it wasn't worth it.

"This is a waste of oxygen," you told him lastly.

You stood up from beside him and gladly walked away, not bothering to look back to see his expression when he realized what he said.